about a breakup

I got dumped and it inspired me to write a lot, so yeah i figured id morph it into one master sad post

I was speechless twice in that relationship

When you told me you loved me 

And when you told me you no longer did

It hard to stop knowing someone. Just because they left your life doesn't mean they left. You are still implanted in my mind. Your favorite food is fajitas, your least favorite is mushrooms. You love black cherry ice cream and can't wait to get to university. 

You made France your home for six months, much like how i made you mine. Just like that country my mind is still covered in the footsteps you left. You love your mom, but its hard to understand her. When you left me that's what it reminded you of. Your father leaving your mother. That's the problem with a break up, its usually one sided. The other person doesn't see it coming. I was blindsided. I planted myself in your life and you stopped watering me. That's what it felt like. I never thought i was love-able before you and i guess I'm still not. The point is I'm trying to forget you but its hard when you left pieces of yourself with me, what am i suppose to do with them? I cant just throw them away they stick to my mind like glue. I guess i don't want to forget you. That's okay, i don't want to. I want to get over it.

I have been writing about him for the past five months, i don't want to write about love anymore. So this will be my very last entry about him.

I was in love with ______________ and he was in love with me. We had adventures and wonderful experiences together. We told dumb jokes and sang in the car together. We talked about secrets and our pasts. I taught him what a real relationship was like and he taught me what love is. He made me forget to breathe and he made me want to cry. Until he told me he no longer loved me. I don't know if that's true, I think he was afraid of being committed to me.

But regardless, he left me alone. Now, I am forced to let go of him. To let go of what we had. I don't have a choice.

Author's Note

Just know, I got over him

Reviews

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This is really genuine and boy do I relate to this right now. There are some really powerful lines here like that whole first paragraph, "I was speechless twice in our relationship when you told me you loved me and when you told me you no longer did." and "I planted myself in your life and you stopped watering me." I'm happy you got over him, I can't wait to say the same!