Unrequited feelings

A Poem by baftub

thoughts that have been dwelling for a long, long time.

If I could paint a perfect picture I'd place it in a glass jar,
To save all our memories, the good and bad parts,

We had our ups and downs, left and rights,

I guess that's the real reason you left me right?

I wasn't good enough, should I bluff and take a chance-

And say to your face that I want to erase our past

I know it makes you mad although these anxious hands,
Can't seem to shake the fact why you'd never take me back

Is it this big nose that I have? take a stab,

Tear me piece by piece so long as we make it last,
I gave you all I could and yet you left me in the snowy weather,
It saddens me inside that nobody will ever know me better,
Truthfully I'm zapped out, the pessimistic definition
Melancholic expression as a deep depression sets in

Months pass and the seasons change,
My heart's cold as the freezing rain,
Pops on his death bed is the only thing that keeps me sane,
He's fighting for his life with an unsharpened knife,
While I'm stuck inside my head on how I lost my future wife,
What happened next unfolded before my eyes and became true,

Blinded by ignorance I instinctively blamed you,

When my dad passed I thought we'd return back together,
But that's childish on my behalf because nothing lasts forever.