Getting low

Ive gone to hell and back again, over all this s**t and high hopes and lack of loyalty from people. Tik Tok i need the clock to stop.. the way I think is not the way you would think. Im young and crazy, full of questions that i want and need answers to but I know for a fact I will never get an answer. Joy and faith, fantasy and reality all clashing and breaking off slowly unable to find myself... finding it all crumble and turn. I want out and I want out now.