Please

Please...

stop stop stop

it's all I can say...

I need help, I want help. When it all gets too much I throw my hands over my head, wrapped around my ears with my blanket over me.

I repeat to myself saying stop over and over again, I say please because I don't want to cut nor kill myself but the thoughts rush through my mind like a  current. 

I've gone to far this time and I love too much...

I want to go home... I want my mother... but I push people away when I get like this.

please...

stop stop stop