What's Wrong

Short story or more then that, How the mind works but more about how my mind works.A thought.

Ive been so fidgety lately, like something is wrong or even behind me.  

Even seeing the towels hanging on the cloths line, seeing them at the corner or my eye it makes me freak out that its something completely diffrent. 

Humming so loudly like I did when I was younger when my cousin passed away, the constant hum at the same tone yet it gets louder or faster even both, it makes me think that when I do hum what does it really do. 

Does it block out things I don't want to hear or if its just me humming when i'm really into doing something. 

I know i'm in control but sometimes I cant help it, then when I do stop its like i'm all alone unable to control the silence, the ringing in my ear when there is no talking, no wind, not even animals wondering around.

Im humming so loud that when I stop I feel sick to my stomach, pain in my head and numbness in my whole body. 

What's wrong?

What does this mean?

What's happening to me?

who Am I?

Author's Note

I'm not a good speller, this is a short story but well its even less then that its more of a thought.