![]() AS THEY FOUND HER...A Poem by Father Mojo
it was every morning...
just like every other morning or so it seemed but it wasn’t the parents unaware downstairs in the kitchen clinking coffee spoons circling in glass hot coffee the smell of bacon muffled conversation floating through the house it was every morning but it wasn’t then the howling the almost sad wailing sneaking over the morning sounds unthreatening encroaching slowly piercing their awareness chilling they don’t know why but it chills them this was new it had not happened before and it marked something new something different something unwanted and unwelcome and they knew it yelling up the stairs no reply just the howling and the faint sound of scratching the eerie tattletale scratching whispering its sad little secret and they knew for the first time they knew it wasn’t every morning not knowing how they knew but they knew and with a dignified yet hastened pace he went first ascending stairs she lingered slowly behind like a thick smoke from a pipe curling around him “what is it? what’s wrong?” he offers no reply focused on his destination turning the corner floating down the narrow hall to her door knocking softly calling her name but only the howling only the scratching only a soft canine whimper climbing the two steps to her room turning the knob pushing the door greeted by the chaotic shepherd and nothing else she was sleeping so he thought just for a fraction of a second he allowed himself the luxury of that hopeful thought just for a second before he was battered bloodied brutalized she was not sleeping... the terrier never leaving her side as she lay still pale-green cold eyes open seeing nothing the terrier never left her side he was so stoic his whole life dignified proper patrician always in control but no longer dropping to his knees shouting shouting shouting her name his disbelief o god what has his good little girl done? shouting howling and the curl of smoke still in the hallway asking “what is it? what’s the matter?” the curl of smoke finally entering seeing rushing to the bed “she’s only sleeping my baby’s only sleeping!” grabbing her in a desperate cradle of her arms “my baby! my baby!” the terrier never leaving her side the mother clutching imploringly the father broken the shepherd howling the terrier dutifully keeping vigil... retaining her beauty even in death vacant vacuum eyes still so beautiful she was still so damned beautiful as she lay limp cold not sleeping... a bottle of pills a half empty bottle of vodka and a single word writ large on her bedroom wall with a black marker no note no rationale just one word “alone” later that day we sit in a circle in the living room silenced stunned purulent asking always asking “why?” “how?” The mother sobbing “my baby, my baby” the father a crack running through his patrician exterior he just groans almost inaudible almost imperceptible and perhaps it was imperceptible to others but we hear it--those of us who know him hear it and we shudder at its sound and for the first time I realize that this is something I will never get over there is no moving on there is just simple endurance from now on life isn’t lived it is endured and on a relentlessly cold february morning we will bury pieces of ourselves along with her... © 2015 Father MojoReviews
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Added on February 19, 2010Last Updated on January 13, 2015 Author![]() Father MojoCarneys Point, NJAbout"I gave food to the poor and they called me a saint; I asked why the poor have no food and they called me a communist. --- Dom Helder Camara" LoveMyProfile.com more..Writing
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