4 boys

To all the boys who have broken my heart

To the first man who broke my heart as well as many boys.

I loved you the man I could trust knowing

I’d never be abandoned by you

I remember planting strange flowers with

you, you said they were tomato’s yet they

never bloomed their green leaves

intimidated me we silently fought for your

love i was too young to beat the addiction

that had bonded with you for years until the day they took you away

and you were more like a bad memory one

I tried so hard to forget but still lurked in

my thoughts so every boy I met I told them

my thoughts and feeling thinking I could fill

the void you once inhabited but these boys

came in and mined the hollow walls of my

heart for any kindness or love I had left and

when they realized I started to make more

love and my heart began to bloom like a

beautiful flower on a fine spring day I guess

the space got too cluttered and so they

cracked the fragile walls and made their

escape there was one boy no matter how

hard he tried he could never hurt me until I

hurt myself by ignoring my feelings so now I

continue making myself numb until there is

no more day in the night and I am alone

free to feel I don’t know my deal but I

know I’ll grow old alone and maybe that’s

better because when I die no one will be

left heartbroken because I was to far to

reconnect by the time he got there