cravings

i think that

its okay to crave things that you know aren’t good for you

for example: 

i so badly want you

(who are you?)

to hold my hand tenderly.

to cradle me in your arms like i am a precious thing

to be stared at and cherished and loved and touched.

i want you to accept my terrible self that wants to break free

not that you have to like her.

but accept her

please can you accept her? so that i can finally let her go

it is okay to crave this

but i 

do not want it

not yet

i’m not ready for it

not yet