5: My true love had left

when did you become important? That was a mistake, because i chose you over her, and now it's myself that i hate.

Let's skip around to all the cute love s**t that we had become. It's been a month, and the first stage of a relationship is always the best, isn't it? Of course. And after months of chasing after this boy, wanting him, and dreaming of being his, i had to make this last. That was my plan. All the time i had was wasted on him, only him, and always will be him.
No one else mattered anymore.How could they? My life was insanely perfect and i didn't need anyone anymore. Blame me, if you wish, but for him it was the same. Though we never showed any PDA, we were always like a couple. And not many people knew because of the no PDA thing.

Then i saw Aria. I then realized it all, my perfect life was perfect, but i left her alone with girls whom weren't real friends. I had gone and left for a month.
"Can i talk to you?" She asked, and pulled me away from Russell. We were at the library, the place we used to hide from reality together. Like two lovebirds, i used to think. Though, i imagined us together sometimes, i couldn't think of it ever happening. I knew her too well to know that she wasn't like that, and i thought of her of a sister too much. Yes, we kissed and slept together, but it was all sisterly, as she thought of it and i began to think of it like that too.
"We haven't been here in so long..." I smiled, pulling her down next to me in the grass. "So what do you want to talk about?" I closed my eyes, breathing in the breeze and the sunlight. "You and Russell... I'm happy for you and all, but it's like you're leaving me." She said. I shook my head. "No I'm not. We can still hang out, he doesn't mind."
"Why should he?! I'm You're best friend.."She exclaimed.
"I don't know! It's just.. I have to spend time with him, i can't afford to lose him, you know how long I've worked for to be like this with him??" I told her. How can she not understand.
"That doesn't mean you can't have time for us."
"What, Ari?? Did you and Tim break up or something??" I yelled at her, she was pissing me off too much.
" I told you I'd spend time with you guys, okay??! What else do you want?! For me to be your Girlfriend??" We were both standing up at this point.
"Even if me and Tim broke up, it has nothing to do with this.." She said, standing her voice. "Whatever, Aria. Things change." I said, walking away.

That's the last i saw of her. After that, me and Russell's relationship was perfect. HE came over during summer and I had time with my other friends, like Aria told me too. Just not with her, since she was still acting like a baby and ignoring me. It was whatever, though.

Russell was going to San Diego, leaving me here for some part of the summer.
"Yeah.. I'm so sorry, babe.." he sighed, i was lying on my couch and he on the floor.
"It's cool, you have to spend time with your family anyways."
This was his Dead Father's side. I felt like it had to be important somehow.I always felt like i could relate to him, our dad's both gone in our life, him never meeting his, and me never growing up with mine.
"Let me tell you a story.." He said, rubbing my hair back, trying to help me go to sleep. I nodded in agreement and closed my eyes.
"Once upon a time.. a boy named Russ Degraded his classes so he can lay back at school. Then the first day of his new classes, he saw this girl sitting at her desk and she was the prettiest girl he ever seen... Everyday he tried to talk to her, but she never noticed him. So he gave up on her and started to just watch her pretty face in class and learn things about her. How he wished to approach her, but he didn't know how to pronounce her name because her teachers all said it differently. Then after 3 terms later in his classes, he had the luck to meet her and work with her, though he didn't know how to act so it just made him seem like a big a*s dick.. and that was the start of their relationship." I was still awake, and i opened my eyes. Though i did not say this, but that was the moment i fell in love with Russell. The moment he said he liked me the moment he saw me.

weeks past before he left to San Diego.
"Why are you going through my blog??!" iscreamed, going through it on my computer and seeing there was so many things about him that i did not want him to see, all my emotions about him and love quotes that were obviously meant to be for him
"Damn, you sure do love our relationship." he laughed, making me blush.
"I am sooo going to break up with you!!" i joked.
"That's not funny." he said blankly, and i apologized in that same moment. There were thousand of pages because i would re-blog things from other people if they had put things on theirs that i liked. There was nothing i could do now. My blog was public and he could access it anytime he could. So i just lived with it, knowing he knew everything i had ever thought and ever felt about. He even apologized for hurting me so much in the past.

A knock was on my window. It was 12 in the morning and i was scared as f**k when i heard a knock from my window. i was scared out of my mind. i peeked through the window with a flashlight not on. When the blind was open she flashed the light in his eyes and the man in my window was stunned for a moment, enough to realize it was Russell.i opened it, quickly.
"What the hell?!" i nearly yelled.
"I was about to same the same s**t!!" He said, hitting the back of her head softly.
"That was uncalled for." I said, eyebrows raised. He shook his head at me and pulled me out the window, holding my hand the while way through. My Dad was out of the house, and my mom was sleeping, i was safe enough not to get caught sneaking out the house.
"I'm Leaving tomorrow morning..I had to see you before i left." He said to me, We weren't going out anywhere. Just on the front of my house. We sat on the driveway, looking at the stars. It was a perfect moment. My Parents were on good terms with him and i was in the perfect relationship.

Except for my Dad's car revving up on us on the driveway. I was still. Heart had stopped, realizing there was a boy at our house. And it was midnight.
"Leave, Russell. Let him see your face and never come here again, You understand?? I'll... see you at school.."
"Lei!?"
"Go." I angered at him.

That was the last i had saw him. His face being shown to my father and leaving us two together. My hair being pulled out from my head and thrown onto the couch. Sights of my father breaking down my door and killing my window.

And i never stepped foot out of the house until it was time to start school again.

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[Cassie-Tastrophy]

Awwh this is so sad =/..You are a great writer, though =). This brought back many memories....Both good and bad.
Thanx for giving me the chance to look back at some great memories :).

-Love,
Cassie