I promised, You promised

hmm it's all my fault

you promised you would never hurt me
i believed you and now i'm crying
i trusted you because you told me to
you said you loved me
then you took it back.

you promised you would tell me everything
i believed you and now there's only silence
i trusted you because you told me to
you still love her
while you hooked me
you wouldn't reel me in. . .

you promised you wouldn't leave me
i believed you and now you're gone
i trusted you because you told me to
you didn't love me at all
the hook just keeps jabbing me

you promised you'd still talk to me
i believed you and now it's been a week
i trusted you because you told me to
there's never been any love
i pulled out the hook myself
i'm swimming away with a limp
but i'm done with the broken promises.

you broke your promises to me
all the ones i held dear.
you broke the promises that gave me hope
so i broke the one promise--
the one promise that meant anything at all to you.

i promised i would never raise the razor
you believed me and now it's all letting out.
you trusted me because i never gave you a reason not to
i showed as much love as i could
you said i was too clingy
your hook is too painful now

I still love you like the moment i saw you
but now i can't tell whether i should love--
or if i should laugh with no heart.
two heartbreaks at the same time,
my heart finally said
"f**k this" and left me.

Now all i feel is laughter and numbness
it's the "happiest" i've ever been.
so thank you for the broken promises,
and thank you for lying to me.
I'm truly grateful.

Reviews

[Jesi]

Deep, sad, filled with regret, pain, makes you wanna fix everything and make it right. I can only image what pain the relationship brought... the cuts in this writing makes me feel the pain and regret. Longing the promises you were told but yet not being able to recieve them. ive felt that pain before, this reminds me of me. So congrats :) you were able to get in touch with my memories and most likely others attention as well. I admire how your able to connect with other people in your writings. :)

~Jesi