Virtual Relationships

Reality bending, it melds worlds together.

Need to come up 

with the words to say, 

the games to play 

while I'm playing games, 

 

digitally expanding my mind's size 

to accomodate the info processing 

in my efforts to calculate 

these problems that occur. 

 

The issues that break 

apart my virtual mind like a virus, 

virally inserting itself 

into every aspect of my life, 

where my perspective is focused 

on nothing 

but the answer to the problem 

like complicated equation. 

 

My thoughts formulating 

according to the formula of nothingness 

where I remain stuck to the concept 

while conceptually conspiring to 

perspirate the answer from my dry lips. 

 

Lips thirsting for an answer 

to bleed into my ears as 

my heart bleeds black 

due to the poison 

brought from being backstabbed 

by my own scorpion's tail, 

 

I yell at myself, 

unable to speak outside, 

stuck inside my own mind, 

membrane frozen back to stage one, 

welcome to the Ice Age. 

 

Brought up single-player 

to accomodate happiness between a co-op effort, 

I single-handedly destroyed my own base, 

leaving me and my partner 

vulnerable to the sinking poison between us. 

 

As our hearts connected, 

the poison bled in, 

leading to pain in one, 

apathy in the other, 

where I pathetically left it to player 3 

to solve the issue, 

losing my place in the matter, 

 

feeling replaced and yet grateful 

for someone saving my second 

from the first's mistakes, 

and now I must make the choice 

 

to break from the path 

I've made to get back to step one, 

where every mess I've made can become undone. 

 

Delete the save file, 

overwrite with a new beginning 

with co-op between the two players 

able to back each other up together 

as allies, 

as friends, 

and as lovers.

 

-Jerisson DeLaCruz, 10-30-11