Reality of the Situation

One of those sad moments as a teenager, where you just say, f it.

Is this a nightmare, 
or is it reality? 
Tell me right now 
before I lose all sanity.

Am I losing her, 
or am I losing it? 
Either way I'm losing 
something, bit by bit.

I see her always, 
but I can never speak.
My mind may be strong,
but my voice is too weak.

I've lost so many times,
I don't feel like playing the game.
Every time I've tried,
the outcome has been the same.

I've lost my grip
without her holding my hand.
Without her there next to me,
there's no point for me to stand.

When I look into her eyes,
I see a beautiful soul.
If people look into mine,
they'll see a gaping hole.

I guess since I don't got much
I haven't gone far.
They say life is a game,
I guess the winners must go hard.

I got nothing to lose,
and there's so much to gain.
But all my efforts,
so far have been in vain.

I guess it's game over for me
cause I never even got her.
It's these days I wonder
if I should even bother...

-Jerisson DeLaCruz, 5-23-10