Stardust

Am I even breathing anymore
In time and space existed
By a word in a window out a door
Am I even living anymore

How selfish of I, to survive
How ignorant of I, to ruin grammar
How arrogant of I, to believe in death

Maybe I'm already dead
Maybe I feel it
That you all see my twinkle see me shimmer
But I'm already gone
I was burnt out
A long, long time ago

This star
Isn't in you're atmosphere
He's still trying to find
His way home

How blind have I become, to not see the game
Nobody's losing but nobody's winning
You get to be deluded
Hopes and dreams secluded
Exclusive luck plays the role
And your mind, good luck taking control

No I know now - there is no age no race no religion No gender No sexuality no status no class no God.... only divide

An when the alien life forms come to land
Most of us will run and hide

Some of us will kill ourselves
Some of us will cry
Even few of us will deny

Until that life
I don't want to know about mine

I just want to be free
Take this prison away
I just want to be dead on earth
So they can scream in the darkness
They can scream in silence

The echo reaching my spirit
Howling to my soul
Few I trusted begging - Come home

Give me a good reason why
Cause unconditional love
Doesn't even make my ice burn

I'm wasted I've decayed to the bone
This isn't my life
I had no control
Every sound every smell every touch every vision
A quest into the prism

The journey is just beginning
Set sail, foot down on the clutch, one foot in front of the other
I miss my childhood
I miss my mother
The happiness the curiosity the world that didn't bother us
An now we all divide
Turning into dust

My heart has rusted
My brain has fried
My soul takes little to cry

I don't wonder or figure
I just let the world burn
Let this humanity die
Because we don't care about why
We care about benefit
We care about envy
Loathe poverty
Whine even when we have trauma
Because humanity is nothing but theatre
A fragment of hope
A state of chemical joy
Brainwaves cells circuits destroyed

Addicted to the stars
On the red carpets or in the skies
We listen when it's too late
We care when it's quid pro quo
An these stars keep twinkling
Keep falling.....

Am I even breathing.... yes
One more breathe
To move the dust
That was once bones......