Lyrics/Potrait

About the relationships I had that eventually brought me to the one. A song about not being held down and expressing forgiveness but deep reflection on society and same sex attracted men (my experienc

Almost every youth driven desire
Obtained my stature and disaster
They do cherish you're body
An forget you have a mind
Your soul dies a little inside

I never deny it though
The love they brought to the table
And the emotions I wasn't able
An old soul who wanted to be young
Enchanted by romance
Enticed by rebellion

I'm no clue to the life you knew
The past remains there
I take every stroke of the brush
Bought every canvas
Mixed every color
I am my own responsibility
I am my own heart
I am
My own portrait

Sexually frustrated and psychologically messed up
Entrusted the wrong an chased demons into the sun
Proweled in the moonlight no fear
The predators far and wide
Get too close to your pride
But I wouldn't no I swore I cried but I wouldn't no I wouldn't hide

I'm no clue to the life you knew
The past remains there
I take every stroke of the brush
Bought every canvas
Mixed every color
I am my own responsibility
I am my own heart
I am
My own portrait

Fighting the system that demeans me
Freedom to the insecure child within thee
No more games no more chains
I dreamt of it and I will earn it
The love I've been hoping for
A soul who is beyond kindred

I swam in my own blood sweat and tears
Faced my darkest secrets and fears
Youth is a state of mind
Age is just a number I can't even find
Theres no need to fast forward
No need to rewind
In this present moment
When he stands beside
An looks into my eyes
This white witch is
Floating inside

I'm a light to the life I know
The past is where we grow
I take every stroke of the brush
Bought every canvas
Mixed every color
I am my own responsibility
I am my own heart
I am
My own portrait
To hang on every wall
In every ancient hall
To be interpreted
To be honoured
To be auctioned
Only at my worth
Of a thousands lives I've lived
Paint me a million more

If you are with me