When that day came..

It was exactly how I'd pictured it;

although a little earlier than predicted.

I didn't expect it would feel so, expected.

I almost felt as if it was getting closer as the days passed.

It was certain, we'd close the four year gap.

I have to admit i was afraid,

What would the absence cause?

Would it have changed anything at all?

I feared that answer the most.

I first seen hints of him around,

Not enough to have ever thought he was near.

Friends, his brother...

And then that familiar build, the way he stood.

that same haircut since the day we met..

I waited, I prepared for my knees to buckle,

my heart to drop and my stomach to hurt.

because, that is what I was used to, whenever I saw you.

I'll admit, I felt nervous..

I had once portrayed this man as the love of my life.

I wasn't ready for any altercation just yet,

And as predicted...I was surrounded by alcohol.

Careful not to drown myself, drown only my nerves.

Eventually, It was time to pretend I hadn't noticed he was here,

When he noticed me.

Shamefully, we talked for hours.

I shouldn't have, he never deserved that time.

But I couldn't pull myself away, from his apologies.

Because I deserved that.

For me it was as though the years had doubled me in maturity.

I wasn't shy or playing games.

The game was finally over, I could talk...and laugh.

It felt easy.

He was the very same person I met.

The very same one, I left behind.

Everything about him, had frozen in time.

The years between us meant nothing,

I had gone back in time.

The way he felt never changed,

he called me gorgeous...

spoke to me the way he used to.

But I had changed.

In that time, I had healed.

I had met someone new,

Someone who showed me what love is meant to be like.

I cried all of the tears I ever had for him,

and tonight was the night I realized, there were no more.

Throughout those four years, somewhere along the way

I had let go of him.

That wound had closed.

I am healed.

Author's Note

quite story-like, Let me know what you think

Reviews

[Suvada]

i really do love this piece. i guess i love it bc at one time i was in the same position as well, thought it was the love of my life and than out of nowhere he disappears and sit in my room for 5 months crying out every tear i had for him, until someone came around the corner and lifted me up. So yeah i love this piece its beautiful and easy to connect with.

thank you