Silver linings.

A Poem by ayejodie

midnight thoughts

i should probably sleep,
But it's 2am and my eyes are wild.
I am thinking about you,
I am thinking about the universe.
And its miracles.

How, when I was 14,
I chose to not believe in God anymore.
I blamed him because I was alone,
I didn't feel good enough.
But then he sent me my first kiss.

When I was 15,
I questioned him again.
Because I was surrounded by people,
Who made me feel alone.
I dived into such a dark place at such a young age.
The lowest I've ever been.
But then he sent me somewhere new,
And I never felt that way again.

Then at 16,
I got carried away and almost lost myself.
Giving in to all things that pressured a teen.
That tempted me.
But then he sent my son.
A love so strong it made me grow.

At 17..
I met someone.
Three years of minute happiness
And a downward spiral.
Oh the pain..
Blind to any signs being sent.
Years of building up a past to numb the hurt he'd caused.
I kept meeting these 'someone's',

Until at 20 he sent me you.
And at 22, another son.

Every bad has given me better.
Everything happens for a reason.