lauras dairy

dairy of a single working class lady

Laura’s diary

WEDNESDAY 23RD JUNE

CATHY AND HENRY


 Hmm…… were do I start? The fact that we are adults and have to watch our language in front of our kids or that we can never have the amount of privacy we expect even in our own homes. well I was at my friends today ,Cathy has been my friend and self imposing advisor ( sort to say) on issues that she felt I needed to be understand clearly about marriage, She was herself married and mother of three kids, this bothered me abit because , during her *lectures* I always pointed out to her that I was not yet married. She just wouldn’t stop ,her housekeeping and home-management lectures ,she drilled into my ears each time we met ,but today, she had a very different topic to discuss ,as if I had the right to object, really ! I said in mocking amazement, what is it , it about me and Henry, Henry was her husband for the past 15 years , I admired them though but didn’t say it, I am young and single , I thought I would enjoy it as long as I could, what is it about you and Henry I asked ,again, Well you see laura, she started , life is about a health sex relationship and it is very important in marriages ,really? I hope I didn’t play too dumb, because this was the first time Cathy was saying anything to me about sex this could be very interesting, so I pressed to hear the rest , Laura dear my husband and I try to keep a health sex relationship ,,how do you do this ? I asked making sure not to miss any pointers….. Henry and I try to be discreet when talking about sex and bed matters, especially when the kids are around, she continued, the kids were always asking embarrassing questions, like last we my eldest daughter ask me what an erect c**k meant,(hmmm..erect c**k! Claudia was only 12 years old), I asked here where she heard that and she said she had heard her father and I talking in the kitchen one afternoon and that it was I who used the word. well I just gave her an excuse and said that it have something to do with the weather, ( erect c**k! The weather! ,I wonder what she told her daughter), But this didn’t stop there , she also asked what did *doing the 69th position* meant, I was shocked with disbelief. Henry and I finally formulated something to ease the sex talk in presence of the kids .so now I can tell you Laura we have invented coded language for sex related matters and we now talk freely in front of the kids, freely? What are your code words well ,she started looking up at me , I am the washing machine and he is the laundry man, ooh that’s so smart I said , I didn’t understand it very much then ,not until Henry came home, Cathy persuaded me to have lunch with them , it was a public holiday , I had nothing to do so I accepted ,,henry brought back take away , We sat down at the table , there was me , Cathy ,Henry and their 3 kids, it was a hearty meal , I enjoyed it really , after the lunch I proposed to do the dishes by Cathy refused and said , I will do them later Cathy was already in Henrys arms and the kids were watching a TV programme , well I have to go now, I said Cathy I have to rush to the supermarket and rest a little at home,ok honey she said back now at the door step Cathy was just telling me she would come to my house during the weekend , I said ok Just then ,Henry called out from the living room ,darling … the laundry man is ready ,I looked her in the face and smiled , but she didn’t smile back, she just yelled back at him , the washing machine is broken! I looked confused now, but I was still smiling ,Henry was not giving up he just called to her even louder OK DEAR I WILL JUST MANAGE A HAND WASH. I turned round and walked towards the super market. And they lived happily ever after

LAURAS DAIRY...THURSDAY 24

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DEAR DAIRY, 
                    TODAY BENARD LOOKED TIRED , IT WAS CLEAR THAT HIS THOUGHTS WEIGHED IN ON EVERY RESPONSE HE GAVE AS I TRIED TO KNOW HOW HIS DAY AT WORK WAS ,IT WAS UNLIKE HIM, USUALLY HE WAS SO FULL OF SMILES AND ALWAYS TRYING TO MAKE ME LAUGH ,BUT NOT TODAY ,I WAS SHOCKED AND DID NOT EXPECT THIS, I TRIED NOT TO ASK  THE REASON  HIM THE REASON FOR HIS MOODINESS, I JUST PLAYED IT COOL,HE HAD BEEN FOR THE PAST 2 MONTHS MY SOURCE OF INSPIRATION ,AND WAS ABLE TO CHEER ME UP WHENEVER I WAS DISSAPOINTED OR SAD ,SORT TO SAY  
I  REALISED I COULD NOT DO THE SAME FOR HIM, DUMBED BY THE FACT THAT I WAS HELPLESS, IT WAS CLEAR HE NEEDED CHEERING UP,BENARD RESPECTED AND CHERISED ME IN ALL MY FEELINGS AND BROUGTH ME THE AIR I HAD NEEDED AFTER MY 2 YEARS ABSTINANCE FROM MEN ,WHAT IS HAPPENING?  I QUERIED WITHIN ME, WAS HE TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING WAS HE LEAVING ME ? THIS ACTUALLY STRUCK ME AS THE REALITY I WOULD HAVE TO FACE,BUT THERE I DIDN’T GIVE UP ,I DECIDED TO INVITE HIM TO MY PLACE ,( ITS THURSDAY SAID A LITTLE VOICE IN MY HEAD , I KNOW AS  I ONLY INVITED MALE FRIENDS TO MY PLACE ONLY ON WEEKENDS).BUT THIS IS  AN
EMERGENCY. 
                 HE ACCEPTED AND I WENT A STEP FURTHER BY ASKING HIM TO DRIVE US HOME IN MY CAR , HIS REPONSES WERE,, OK ,IF YOU WISH, 
I DIDN’T LIKE THESE SORT OF REPONSES FROM PEOPLE, DIDN’T LIKE PEOPLE TO MAKE FEEL AS IF I WAS SELFISH OR BOSSY, 
HE DROVE ,BUT STILL DIDN’T SAY A WORD ABOUT WHAT WAS BOTHERING HIM ,I TRIED TO BE STILL AND QUIET BY QUESTINED MY SELF ,WHAT WAS IT HE WANTED MORE , QR WAS IT ME ASKING FOR TOO MUCH, 
I LIKED IT WHEN ME PAMPERED ME, IT DIDN’T MATTER I CONSOLED MYSELF. 
                INSIDE MY APPARTMENT HE INSTALLED  HIMSELF AND  I MADE COFFEE AND WE DRANK SILENTLY ,I WAS WAITING TRYING TO SEE IF HE WOULD ASK WHY I WAS SILENT , HE WON I THOUGTH CAME TO MY MIND A HOT BATH TOGETHER WOULD DO US ,I RAN THE BATH AND PRONOUNCED WITHOUT LOOKING AT HIM  *BATH TIME * , THIS WAS OUR FAVOURITE CODE WORD FOR < I WANTED YOU IN THEW BATHROOM  WITH ME.> . 
BUT TODAY HE DIDN’T JOIN ME WE HAD BATHS TOGETHER BEFORE, I WAITED 5 MINUTES, HE DIDN’T JOIN ME  
I STEPED INTO THE LIVING ROOM WRAPPED IN MY TOWEL, 
I PULLED HIM OFF THE SOFA AND LED US TOWARDS THE BATHROOM, HE FOLLOWED RELUCTANTLY, THIS CONFUSED ME THE MORE, 
IT HAD BEEN 3 HOURS SINCE WE FINISHED OUR DINER AT REED EAT-IN AND TAKE AWAYNOT A COMPLETE PHRASE FROM HIM,  
JUST SHORT RESPONSES OF OK ,NO AND IF YOU WISH HE NEVER STOPPED SIGHING IN THE BATH TUB, I GENTLY ASKED IF HE WAS SICK OR NEEDED TO TELL ME SOMETHING IMPORTANT , I DID NOT POINT OUT THAT HIS BEHAVIOUR THIS EVENING HAD BEEN WORRYING ME, 
HE ANSWERED NO THERE IS NOTHING WRONG.EXPERIENCE WITH MEN HAD TAUGHT ME NOT TO VOICE OUT MY CONCLUSIONS WHEN IT CONCERNED TO MASCULINE BEHAVIOUR 
I HAVE TO GO HE FINALY SAID AND STEPPED OUT OF THE BATHTUB, WAIT! I CALLED OUT TO HIM, 
I WAS OVERPOWERED BUT FELT I NEEDED TO DO MORE, MY FINAL RESORT, < MY ACE > SEX 
HE WAS A BOUT TO LEAVE ME, A WILD THOUGTH RAN THROUGH MY MIND.WELL HIS LOSS! 
MAYBE HE NEEDED TO RELAX BUT AS I HAD DECIDED, THE CHOICE OF MAKING LOVE FOR THE LAST TIME WOULD BE MINE. 
I WOULD NEVER QUQRREL TO RESOLVE OR REDRESS ANY OF MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH MEN FOR I WAS AS FIDEL AS THEY CAME. 
             HE WAS DISTRACTED, AND JUST LAY THERE, I HAD TO LEAD EVERY MOVE, I HAD ALL THE PLEASURE AS I STILL LOVED BENARD, 
WOKE UP THIS MORNING HE WASN’T BY MY SIDE, HE HAD TO RUSH OF SOMEWHERE,AS HE SAID IN THE NOTE HE LEFT ON MY BED TABLE, 
I AM HAPPY THOUGH AND I RESPECT HIS CHOICE OF SILENCE,I COULDN’T TAKE IT WHEN A MAN TELLS ME HE IS LEAVING ME FOR ANOTHER WOMAN 
              I WONDER?       WHAT DOES SHE LOOK LIKE BLONDE, BLACK HAIRED, BLUE EYES OR WHAT?  
BENARD NEVER COMPLAINED ABOUT MY PHYSIQUE, ANYWAY I HOPE HE WRITES ME A LETTER OR SOMETHING TO EXPLAIN WHY HE HAD TO LEAVE ME 
I STILL LOVE HIM! 
  
  
FRIDAY 25 JUNE  
BENARDS DAIRY….. 
                  MANCHESTER UNITED LOST THE OPENING LEAGUE MATCH DAMMNED 
                 HMMM ……BUT I GOT LAID

Author's Note

everyone has a different view of life

Reviews

[Angelove]

It was a really interesting thingtomread...

[unknown]

It was really interesting to read this, and see what goes through someones mind, and how well it can play out in words. I agree, though, with Char, that the caps should come off a bit, and separated. :) You did fantastic, though, darlin. :)

[LOfCharlemagne]

This is a very good story and I found it super unique. However, may I suggest turning off caps lock? It is a great story and I love it to death, but the all capital diary page really bugs me. Other then that, great job! :)

[axel]

ops , was in a hurry didnt want the ideas to fade out of my mind, will take your advise thanks

[Junert]

Hahaha OMG! Real [email protected]

[axel]

i am happy you like it, i will add you to my gmail address so we can chat

[Junert]

Yea sure.

[F.P. Chat]

I liked both the stories,I had a bit of trouble reading them though.I had to read many lines twice to identify who is talking and when they change. I agree with Enid Blake about seperating the text per speaker.

[axel]

ok, i got lost a bit there, was living the book, and hey i just got a story published on smashwords.com, i picked the cue from your website its a nice place for new writers

[Enid Blake]

Wednesday's entry was very amusing! The tone and dialogue between your characters sounded believable. You should try separating the chunk of text into paragraphs. It will make it easier for the reader.

[axel]

Thx for the remark, will make next submission better