AriellaA Story by 7ofspadesAriella
Day
1. The effulgent yellow wallpaper is covered with
pictures of lions, leaves, and disproportionate flowers. You could have thought
it was a daycare or playroom of some sort, until you saw the IV poles, the
white coats and scrubs floating in and out of rooms voicing medical jargon. Room 510 was a spacious room, with wide windows and
morning light flowing in. A small girl of 4 years old lay in the bed, pouting
almost. To see her lying here restfully, a bystander would never guess that she
had been admitted for severe respiratory distress, a CT scan revealing a tumor
larger than the size of a golf ball occluding her airway. “Ariella?” I say.
“I’m the student nurse working with you today. How are you feeling?” Ariella looks at me with her brown eyes, saying
nothing. Day
3. My nurse preceptor puts up the systemic poison that
will be intravenously channeled into Ariella’s body for the next fifteen
minutes. She asks me to stay with Ariella for a few minutes, to which I happily
oblige. She seems to be in a good mood today, eating her yogurt by scooping
neat spoonfuls of pink into her mouth. She has started to smile at me. Her aunt
scrutinizes me from head to toe. “You’ve been her nurse?” “I’m a nursing student. I’ve been working with her
for the past few days, yes.” Her facial expression softens. “Her hair, it’ll all fall out soon?” “Yes, it will fall out in the next week and a half
or so.” Ariella giggles, even though I know she has no idea
what I’m saying. She babbles something to her aunt in Yiddish that I likewise
cannot comprehend. “She likes you, she tells me. You’ll be here
tomorrow?” “Unfortunately not tomorrow, but I’ll be back
Thursday.” Day
6. With Ariella in my lap and her two sisters, ages 2
and 5 each grabbing my arms, I’ve become a human jungle gym. And then out of
nowhere, come the crayons. Ariella shrieks with joy as she and her sisters
decorate my left arm with various colors, finding it more interesting than the
lonely white paper sitting on the table. Their mom watches me with smiling
eyes, as she talks to me and the nurse. “Alrighty,” I laugh, “I think it’s time to go to the
playroom.” Decidedly, I round them up before my arm turns blue. “Playroom! Playroom! Playroom!” Ariella chants. Day
12. There are wisps of light brown hair strewn all over
the room: on the floor, on the white sheets of the bed. My nurse and I look at
each other and then at Ariella, happily eating her yogurt at the table. “We need a broom,” she says to me. “And a dustpan.” She
adds. Ariella’s aunt looks at us. “I think it’s best we
just let it fall out naturally. I don’t think her mother wants to have her head
shaved.” By the time we return with the broom and dustpan,
Ariella is scratching her head…and pulling on her hair. Each time she pulls,
another enormous wad of hair comes out. And another. And another. Ariella
expression doesn’t register shock, nor pain, but rather a confusion of sorts.
Her eyes seem to ask the question: “Why does it keep on coming out?” Her aunt watches her for a few seconds, then looks
away. Day
13. Ariella isn’t feeling well. In fact, she is fatigued
all the time, taking several naps a day now, for hours at a time. In the playroom, she wears a mask. It served to
protect her from the potential germs that could invade her susceptible body now
that her white blood count was dropping. After only a few minutes of coloring
she turns to me and says: “Shteeb”. “Shteeb?” I repeat, completely lost. She returns to her coloring. A few minutes later,
she utters the same single word: “Shteeb”. I pull out google translate, but as soon as I had figure
out what she means, she is already taking charge, holding onto her IV pole and
scooting me out of the playroom with her. “You want to go back to the room already, Ariella?”
I ask, surprised. She adored the playroom. As we walk back down the yellow halls, Ariella
hardly looks at the giant flowers and butterflies. When we enter her room, she
promptly heads for her bed, crawling back under the covers I had folded earlier.
She sticks her thumb in her mouth and her big brown eyes look up at me. I squat
down next to her so that I was eye-level. “You’re tired? You gonna take a little nap?” I
whisper. I stroke her hair back away from her eyes, which
slowly droop into sleep. Day
20. I enter room 510, as I have so many times in the
past two weeks, rubbing the stringent purell into my palms. I peek my head
around the corner of the curtain that has been drawn, Ariella’s voice playing
in the back of my head. Asleep in the dim light of the room is a small boy,
probably not quite two. His brows are furrowed, the way kids’ do when they are
having a bad dream. I see that his left arm ends at the elbow, a short stump
where his forearm would begin. His father sits at his bedside, his head cradled
in his hands until I walk in. “Hello.” He says. “Do you need me to wake Aaron?”
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