Something That Was Mine

I don't want this. I don't want the people who were once part of my life to be gone.

I understand I made the mistake of leaving them in hopes of something different. I 

was wrong. What I thought was something different has left me too. Scared to death.

To the point where I am afraid to let someone be as close to me as you once were.

I was so selfish to think there was something better. What I didn't realize, was that it was a someone who was in front of me all along. I hadn't grasped that until they were gone. Is

it too late now to think it could ever be? Will you ever want it to be? I guess all the 

times you heard me cry were too much to handle. I had something, something so special

to me, I tried to protect it from getting hurt again. But I was the one hurting it. I had

something that had no idea how happy it made me feel; could make me feel a million feelings

at once; was there for me at needed times; that I loved, and still do, with everything in

me. Now, I have nothing. It left me, along with what I thought was something 

different. I no longer have something that was mine.

Reviews

[emipoemi]

Very profound and philosophical. Short but substantial. A fantastic postcard story (as they're called). Two comments, if you'd allow me to be so bold:
-"What I didn't realize, until it
was gone, was that something was a someone who was in front of me all along"....I'm don't particularly follow the wording here....there are two "was" in close proximity and I can't figure out whether one or not needs to go (it very much seems, though, that one needs to go).
-After "I had
something that had no idea how happy it made me feel" you tack on a string of sentences that in the end are enhancing this statement. However, to put them after period confuses the reader. Better to have them all come after semi-colons, for that would tell readers that those phrases are adding on to the original thought (rather than their being thoughts themselves).

Well done!

[Airabella]

Alright, I hope this is a little better than the first one,