Hopelessly Fragile

A poem depicting the struggle of someone with a life-threatening addiction, battling with her inner self whether the chance to recover is worth a fight.

A mind of steel and a heart of stone,

But a body as frail as a crystal globe.

Any emotion I can easily shake,

But so much as touch me I will surely break.

Shattered pieces of a wasted life are all that remain;

Too weak to withstand the struggle and to endure the pain.

In invincibility did I once firmly believe,

But I now can feel death slowly catching up to me.

Subject to inevitability, persistence seems in vain;

Why bother to resist? Why bother with the strain?

Perfection is unreachable - a truth I cannot accept.

So into my mind for eternity, despair and gloom have crept.

I chase my own desires though they prevail one step ahead;

A craving left unsatisfied, a violent hunger left unfed

Author's Note

This person is struggling with an addiction and is beginning to realize the dangers of her behavior. She is battling with her inner demons whether she should continue on or make the effort to recover. She has locked away her heart and is numb to feelings and emotions, yet she has worn her body thin and frail. I would love feedback so please comment! :)

Reviews

[paddy d daly]

If one could slow ones mind down, become a ticking clock and slowly slow that down too, slowly slow
everything to a slow stop, to a slow stepping out slow, to step outside and slowly stare in and see,
try in a slow way to see, see the beauty inside

[AveTN]

That was beautiful :) I love the ending "try in a slow way to see, see the beauty inside". Brilliant.

[paddy d daly]

here are some lyrics I once read, sadly not written by me but I think you might like this'
I can recall the sound of the wind
as it blew through the trees
and the trees would bend,
I can recall the smell of the rain
on a hot summer night
coming through the screen,
I'd crawl in your bed when the lightening flashed
and I'd still be there when the storm had passed
dead to the world as the morning cast
its light all around your room