My worst fear

This journey that I have taken with you

Has been long and whiney  

Ever step was uphill

But another step was going back ways

So we got somewhere but we are also stuck

You have the right to blame me to say I did wrong

That I messed up, didn’t stand up

Didn’t love you

Everyone is entitled to there opinion but I must let you know

That I tried….we tried

From day one it was a rush of finding someone that cared

Someone that listened

Someone that treated me right

Didn’t yell or argue with me

(Unless completely necessary)

Someone that talked to me

Someone that cared about me

That got to know the real me

Someone that loved me

Someone that I could love back

I did try

I did mess up

You don’t think I stood up

But I did, it was hard

I didn’t listen when they said

It wouldn’t work

Too much age difference

Too much this-too much that

I have changed so much from last year

 I still have awhile to go to stand up more

Which I’m getting there…but it’s too late

I’ve lost you

You don’t believe I love you

Yu think if I loved you I would talk

I would tell them

…I can’t… I can’t…

The worse part is I probably messed it up for the future

You’re gone forever

You miss me all the time

You never see me

Shall it end?

Yes…and no

It’s painfully over. You’re gone…I’m gone

It also doesn’t end…

I still feel like I have you

I know I still love you

But I’m very afraid that you don’t believe that

That’s my worst fear

That you won’t love me

How could you believe that?

How?

…I’m not sorry I choose this road

I’m just sorry I never got to show you the whole me