Letter to My Friend

Letting out my feelings...

Hey,

I remember like it was yesterday when we first started talking to each other; all the hilarious conversations, angry rants, and all the cheesy bits. Makes me smile thinking about it. You were the person who started conversations and would reply immediately after. We never really hung out in person until the Charleston trip and we hung out most of the time. You and your friends would include me and I felt important. Something I desperately wanted. I didn't think about us becoming a thing. You were my best friend that was real in every way. Some called it a crush, but it was admiration. 

But alas, anything never lasts - with me anyways. I got jealous and that was when we were ripped apart. 

I asked you out on a date to the fair because some people were 'shipping' you with someone else. You said yes and I was ecstatic. Then s**t went down and you ended up being 'sick' that day we were going to the fair. Ever since, I started all the conversations and your replies took forever. I eventually stopped trying and that turned into talking to each other never. 

Time was passed and you found yourself a girlfriend, while I got lonelier and more depressed. In that time, I've never missed anyone more than you. It was then you were back to talking to me, I got instantly happier. Even if it was only small talk in person ,sending each other memes, or you teasing me. Calling me Audumb, which is now common in the band room. 

Every time I see you, I smile. Believe it or not you are the sunshine in my world. You clear my depression when you're around me. Now I can't see you regularly. You're off to college. Of course at the time where we start talking to each other finally. We're back to the hilarious conversations, angry rants and the cheesy bits. It was when you sent me this quote and it got me thinking and writing:

"Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these,'it might have been,"

-John Greenleaf Whittier

It might have been better if I kept my feelings in. It might have been better if I didn't talk to you ever. Period.

But I don't regret what happened between us. When you stopped talking to me, I realized that I had no true real friends like you. And if I never talked to you? Lets say I'd be very unhappy with the current problems I'm having. You're some one I go to when I want an opinion ,or a good conversation or laugh.

I love you and I can't imagine a world without you. I wish the best of luck for you in college and your future.

-Autumn

Author's Note

This is never going to get to him, but I wanted to let out my feelings and cry a little.

Reviews

[Squatchyboy]

I was debating whether or not to post my work, but I read this and decided to go through with it. This is great by the way. I could feel the emotion. Thank you for sharing :)

[Autumn]

I'm glad that I could help!