My Lonely Loser Self

Insecurity #1. Just free styling dumping my feelings all over the place for people to read. No backspacing allowed here.

I'm not the most perfect, patient, attractive, nicest, or anything really...

But really who is though?

Sometimes I'll try to do anything or say anything to keep a friendship or gain one. I'm sorry if it comes off as obsessive or creepy or 'trying too hard'. I am a weird, stupid, and a little annoying sometimes. I am what yoi call socially awkward. I am just a person who needs attention like everyone else in the world. I am just a person who wants attention and I'm alos a person who wants to give attention. 

I'll do anything to get interested in what your interested in and have deep conversations eith you. I make you feel important to me, which you are. But I want to be important to you too. Whenever I reconmend music, you never check it out. Whenever I have deeip s**t problems, you aren't invested like i am when youre talking about your problems. Does my music and interests suck? Am I a boring person? I'm always asking those questions to myslef. 

I'm the one always starting the conversations. I swear if I wqas stuck in my house for a long time, no one would talk to me unless I start the conversation. 

Am I a try hard? 

Am I that boring?

Is my music that irrelavant that you won;t even check out ONE song?

Am I just that much of a loser for you to not hang out with me?

Everyone has their own 'people'. I don't have any group to chat or hang out eiht. And the people who do hang out with me in school is just because theyre being forvced to. I want people. I need people. 

I'm just a lonely loser.

Reviews

[Khushi Madan]

hey.... this is so relateable and sad... yes sometimes everyone gets these feelings but i think all you need to do is "love yourself"... i hope you feel better now.... and this was well written... no filter

[Autumn]

Thanks! This is therapeutic really. I definitely feel better letting it all out.