My Bono Days

Please forgive the structure.....

Do you ever have a Bono Day? I do. They come infrequently and very rare since I got married and became Mommy to Maggi but today is one of those days. I feel uncomfortable in my skin. I look at the world all around me and I want to cry the tears the tearless sky keeps sucked up inside her.

There is so much I could be, should be doing but yet I still sit here, unmoved, waiting. What? My future successful life is going to knock on the door and all I have to do is don a suit and grab my purse? I think not. Just blue today...that's all. Could write more but this line depresses me so much I just want to shut off the computer. God, I make myself sick. I shouldn't even being putting this on here. There is an image we are suppose to keep, no?

Author's Note

I'm sorry

Reviews

[Rick Puetter]

Dear Laura,

The sentiments expressed in your piece were very insightful and I suspect most of us have had those sorts of feelings. My best advise is "little steps". Take little steps in the direction of your dream, but move towards it. The little steps will make it easier at first. They're not too much to bite off. But as you move towards your goal you'll find you can eventually make larger steps since you've adjusted your life a bit so that you could make those first little steps. Then the bigger steps will start to feet more natural and less strained, and under this constant gentle pressure pretty soon there'll be a space to start running, your goal coming ever closer.

So little steps.

Best regards,

Rick

[~amanda~]

i laughed when i saw the title, but then i read the piece, and i echo your pain. the world is not a good place right now and its difficult to realize one person cannot make a difference anymore. i think that the image you portray became stronger after posting this... so dont worry about keeping it up.

this is the part where i would post a lame glitter graphic to tell you to feel better, but
1. i couldnt find one that was appropriate

and
2. this was posted a while ago and you have probably felt different since then
=)

[Samuel Dickens]

No, don't be sorry. We all get jumbled up inside sometimes. You're young --learn to enjoy the journey. Sometimes it's much better than the destination.