"Nothing"

Tears pooling
on the desk
Shoulders shaking
Sobs you try to mask

I'm sitting here
I'm watching you
Your sobs I can hear
I can see your tears too

I ask "What's Wrong?"
You say "Nothing."
And I think "You ding-dong"
"I can see you crying."

I know you barely know me
But I want to help you
Why can't you see?
Why won't you let me get through?

Do you think I haven't cried tears?
Maybe yours and mine are the same.
I've had my fair share of fears.
Please, just call my name.

My tears have pooled
My heart's been broken
Please, don't be fooled
When my sorrows go unspoken

I hide behind a mask
Happiness is my shade
Sometimes, it's no easy task
And sometimes, the facade fades

Please, I want to help you
Just let me in
Tell me what I can do
Tell me through what sorrows you've been

Yet, when I ask again
You still say "Nothing"
If you refuse to let me in
Then I can't do anything

It hurts me to hear you cry
But I'll give you your space
If you won't tell me why
I'll get out of your face

As you turn away from me
A silent tear falls from my eye
Because, you see...

I was 'nothing' when you needed to cry.

Author's Note

This came about in French class today. One of my friends was upset, but she wouldn't tell me what was wrong. She said it was "Nothing" and that she was "Fine", even though I could see and hear her crying. I hate hearing people cry; it makes me feel so bad because a lot of the times I can't make them feel better.

This was yet another spur-of-the-moment poem, so it's not as great as I would like it to be, but here it is; completely raw and un-edited.

Reviews

[Summer'sBreeze]

aw ally this is so sad and sweet in a way
i've gone through the same thing with a few people
i love this it's so beautifuly written.

[The XYZ Writer]

Yeah I know right? Why do people do that? I used to do that before - not cry, just say nothing when people think I'm upset - and it was only later on that I realized I hurt people when I do that. So now when I'm in pain, I say "issues" and "it's okay, you don't need to worry".
The mask part is so true as well. My mask has existed as soon as I begun to understand the world around me. (I was a VERY innocent kid when I was smaller. Wish I still was. :P )

But anyways, beautiful poem Ally. Just one part I thought you could change. "And sometimes the facade fades". The words get mixed up so maybe change the facade to something else?

Seriously, I can't believe you call yourself a beginner poet and this poem raw, when its so amazing. I applaud you for such a meaningful and beautiful poem.

[Larry Dyson]

yes ...but we all have experienced wanting to help ..only to be told ..nothing.. it is so right to say it makes us feel as if we were nothing ..when we wanted to help..good emotional write.