Invisibility

Felt the words sear through my skin,
So I helped and carved them.
Felt the pain splash into my being,
So I helped let it run free.
Felt the anger of everybody,
So I took it out on me.

I'm not perfect, far from it actually.
But you'd think after so long they'd see,
Theyd see that I'm not really me. They'd see the limping,
The dark, cold dead that is my eyes...
The blood that I'm too weak to clean up while I cry.

I'm drained
Because I'm blamed.
I'm insane,
I've been maimed
I'm famed,
Ive a razor that won't be tamed.

I'm alone,
But its so hard to be cold.
I'm numb to it all,
Even the blood as it learns to fall.

My thighs are lined with scars.
My heart won't meet up to par.
My mind wont connect to pain,
My being has been slain.

All my life Ive tried so hard,
Ive acted the part.
But I've finally given in.
I've given in to my sin.

Your words hurt more than you know,
I have no idea how far I'll go.
You're blind to what I'm feeling,
It's myself that I'm killing.
I'm tired and I'm weak,
I'm numb and I need sleep.
You think I'm just being lazy,
But in all honesty,
I lost too much red,
Last night when I bled.