Someone ElseA Story by audioslaver756A spelling bee competitor meets his father for the first time It took my mom 13 years to
introduce me to my father, and even then I’m pretty sure she wasn’t exactly
thrilled about it. Got second in the spelling bee that day too. I wasn’t a
happy camper. Being second hurts. Don’t forget it. All it took was one slip and
it was over, one tiny little lapse in judgment to go from hero to goat. And boy
was it a mighty fall. Not a lot of people pay attention to the spelling bee
circuit, but it’s about as competitive as it comes. It was a league full of
cutthroat thirteen year olds vying for a trophy that, with the advent of
spellcheck, was deemed essentially worthless. Who needs a kid who can rattle
off the correct way to spell “cymotrichous” when you can just throw it into
Google? No one, that’s who, but it sure as hell didn’t stop us from competing.
We wanted to win for no other reason than to show that this goofy-looking kid
here was better than that goofy-looking kid there, and that was always good
enough for us. We thrived off of it. As much fun as the spelling bee was, it
definitely came with its share of drawbacks. Like every other activity
involving kids battling against each other, the bee had a healthy portion of
crazy parents. Soccer moms have got nothing on these crazy ladies at spelling
bees. I’ve seen more than a few parents in tears as they watch their kid
butcher the spelling of an easy word, or toss their big glittering signs that
say “Go Jason!” or “You can do it Bobby!” across the seats as Jason and Bobby
make an early exit from the competition. How any parent could possibly be with
their kid for 16 hours a day just to watch them go at it in some geek
convention was beyond me. It practically made me sick, it really did. My mom,
on the other hand, was a bit more subdued. In fact, during competitions I
hardly even noticed her, and if I did, she was usually sitting in the back
corner reading her Danielle Steele books or taking a nap. After every bee, I’d
get the same line: “Nice job Steven, you really showed ‘em who’s boss.” Didn’t
matter if I won or lost. I don’t think she even knew. Not that it mattered to
me. If I lost I was too depressed to care, and if I won I was practically
floating from the elation. Whether my mom decided to pay attention or not was
out of my control. Every now and then she’d show up with a new boy toy to show
off to the crowd, one of the countless consequences of not having a father.
Funny how whenever she hooked a new guy, I would find her front and center,
cheering herself silly for her “little baby.” Probably just wanted to parade
him around in front of the rest of the parents. Either way, they didn’t stick
around very long, and as soon as she was alone again it was back to the corner
with her, and I knew I wouldn’t hear encouragement like that again until the
next loser decided to make a pass at her. It was disheartening to say the least,
but I’d gotten used to it. Like it mattered if my mom or anyone else decided to
cheer for me. I had more important things to focus on. The
words on the page of my dictionary started to blur together as I stared at
them. Stupid contact lenses. I rubbed my eyes and shook my head, bringing
everything back into focus. Couldn’t afford to lose my eyesight now, I only had
a few more hours before I took the stage at the Midwest Regional Spelling Bee
and I needed all the help I could get. I stretched my legs across the back seat
of the car and glanced out the window. Cornfields raced past in a blur of gold
and green, briefly interrupted by red barns jutting out of the earth every so
often. How quaint. “Iowa sucks,” I
muttered aloud. “Hey,” my mother
yelled back at me from the front seat, “I used to live in Iowa! I spent my
whole life here until I was 24.” I propped myself up and leaned over. “Are you serious?
You lived in this place?” As far as I could remember, we’d always lived in St.
Louis. I was pretty sure I’d never lived anywhere else, but I didn’t know for
sure. Mom wasn’t too keen on talking about the past. “Yup, back when
your father and I were "“ She stopped herself short. “Were what?” “Nothing.” She flipped
on the radio, a twangy voice crooning about some unrequited love filling the
car. I sat back and stared out the window again. That was the first I’d heard
anything about my father in a while. Mom liked to keep him under wraps for some
reason, but I could never understand why. I didn’t even know why they broke up,
or if they even did. For all I know, my dad could be dead, although whenever I
asked my mom tried to assure me that he wasn’t. It wasn’t really important
anyway. I’d never met him, so he was as good as dead to me. My eyes wandered
back to the dictionary on my lap. I wasn’t about to let some stupid stuff about
my mythical dad ruin my chances at winning the spelling bee. The Englert
Theater was packed, full of parents there to root their kids on to victory and
a few couples who had wandered in expecting to see Phantom of the Opera, but
were instead greeted by something that would become much more gruesome.
Competition day was a sight to behold for anyone not familiar with spelling
bees. People crying about forgetting words, people crying because they were
nervous, people crying because they’d just stubbed their toe on the stage and
though it would affect their performance. Parents crying, kids crying,
everybody and their grandma seemed to be crying. The place was madness. Shows
what you get when you put a bunch of over competitive adolescents and their
helicopter parents in a room together and turn the heat up. I rolled my eyes.
My mom and I had never been like this. Heck, at my first competition she barely
even made it on time, walked in right as I finished my first word. We weren’t
the type to get too worked up. They announced over the PA that there were
fifteen minutes until competition time, and I started to wander over to my seat
on the right side of the stage. “Uhh..Steven?” I
turned my head to see my mom standing next to a man I had never seen before.
Here we go again. My eyes went back and forth between the two of them, waiting
for someone to say something. The man cleared his throat. “So, Pam…are you
going to introduce us?” My mom hesitated and then put her hand on my shoulder. “Steve, this is
Mike.” What was going on here? She seemed so nervous about introducing me to
this guy. Not like we hadn’t done this countless times before. “Hi Mike” I stretched
out my hand. This felt like a handshake moment. Gotta be polite and all. Mike
laughed at me. “You haven’t met
your father in thirteen years and all you’re gonna give him is a handshake?”
The light bulb went off. My jaw dropped. I surveyed him closely, my hand still
halfheartedly outstretched. He kind of looked like me. A little bit of the
face, same eyes, same nose. So this was him. “What happened to
you? Where have you been? You’re one of those deadbeat dad types who skips out
on the mother when she’s about to have a kid, aren’t you?” My dad laughed
nervously. “Well, actually,
your mother here sort of…disappeared on me.” I looked at her. She kept her head
down, suddenly entranced by the pattern of the carpet. I kept silent, waiting
for an explanation. “Look Steven,
before I found out I was pregnant with you I already had my heart set on moving
to St. Louis for my real estate career. Your father wouldn’t come with me; he
had too much in Iowa already, his family, a job, a home. When I told him about
you, he tried to get me to stay, and I’d said I’d consider it, but I never did.
I left without giving him an answer. I knew if I was forced to face him again,
I’d never get out of Iowa.” I let out a sharp laugh. Right now my mom was
working as a maid at a local hotel. Funny how dreams work out. “All contestants,
please report to the stage.” I turned my back on both of them. “Gotta go,” I
called behind me as I walked off. My mom tried to yell something to me, but I
didn’t really catch it. I didn’t want to hear it anyway. Having my dad here was
just a huge distraction. What was he doing here anyway? Just thought he’d check
out the local spelling bee or something? Fat chance. Something was up, but I
couldn’t tell what. I took my seat and absentmindedly played with the buttons
on my shirt. I always did that when I was nervous. I scanned the crowd for my
mom, finding her a few rows back sitting next to my father. She looked uneasy,
like she was ready to bolt out of the theater the next chance she got. I don’t
know what her problem was. Guess she really didn’t want to be there with my
dad. “Welcome to the 45th annual Northwest
Regional spelling bee!” I gazed around the crowd, ignoring all of the
introductions and rules they read aloud at the start of every bee. I’d heard it
enough times that I could probably recite it myself; I didn’t need to hear it
again. I couldn’t find anyone particularly interesting to take my mind off
things before they called my name to go spell. “Steven Lacey,
your word is ‘cataclysm’” “Cataclysm,” I
repeated. I took a deep breath, fairly confident I had this one in the bag. I
tried to avoid looking at my mom and dad but I couldn’t. They both gave me
little waves as they caught my eye. I tried to open my mouth to start spelling,
but nothing came out. I’d never been nervous at one of these before, why now? “C-A-T-A-C-L-Y-S-M.
Cataclysm.” A slight roar of applause went up as the judges confirmed my
spelling, and I returned to my seat. I let out a heavy sigh as the competition
continued in front of me. Try as I might to focus on spelling, my mind kept
wandering back to my parents sitting together in the crowd. What a weird sight,
my mom sitting next to a guy who actually meant something to me. As strange as
it felt, I was a little happy that I finally had someone there. I had a lot of
questions, but for now I was just going to enjoy the feeling. I could solve
those problems later. The middle rounds
flew by. The kids around me dropped at an alarming rate, each met with more
tears, anguish, and the occasional parental outburst at the “injustice” done to
their precious child. After several hours of spelling, only myself and one
other kid were still standing among the wreckage doled out by the list of the
words the judge held in his hands. I looked over at him, his chair one row up
and three to the left of mine. He was a little bigger than me, but not by much,
and had a mane of shaggy reddish-brown hair. He glanced back at me and smiled,
but I just nodded. No need to get friendly with the competition here, it was do
or die time. The other kid looked out into the crowd, his eyes searching for
whoever was out there cheering for him. I tried to follow his gaze as he waved
frantically to someone, his lips mouthing what looked like “Hi Dad,” but I
couldn’t tell for sure. Imagine my surprise when my dad waved back at him. My
dad had another son? The same age as me? What was going on? I took another look
at the kid across the stage. He didn’t really look like me. Definitely uglier,
that’s for sure. Must’ve gotten the bad genes. I was pretty sure I could beat
him. I had to. “Steven Lacey,
your word is ‘pernicious’” “Pernicious.” A
tough one. I was pretty sure I could get the first few letters right, but the
ending was what really messed with me. Too many vowels smashed together. I took
a deep breath and found my mother in the crowd, still standing with my father. I
turned over a few different spellings in my mind, taking a second to glance
quickly back at my dad’s other son behind me. I couldn’t lose to this kid. “P-E-R-N-I-C-O-U-S.
Pernicious.” Ding! Son of a b***h. “I’m sorry, but
that is incorrect. Ryan, your word is also ‘pernicious.’” I knew he had it. I
didn’t even listen to him spell it, didn’t even watch as he celebrated, or as
they handed him the medal. I grabbed my silver consolation prize and walked
off, disgusted. My mom was waiting for me by the stage still standing next to
my father. “Hey, good job out
there sport,” he said, “You really gave him all he could handle.” My mom was
oddly silent. “Yeah, whatever.”
I wasn’t in the mood. He smirked and glanced back at my mom. “Dad! Dad!” Ryan, spelling bee champion, was
running up to us, hopping and grinning with his first place around his neck. My
blood grew hot. I still wasn’t happy with losing, especially to him. Ryan
leaped into my father’s arms. “Dad, I won it!” “You sure did, bud.”
He set Ryan back on the ground. I glared at both of them. “Steven, this is
my son Ryan. Ryan, my son Steven” Ryan stared at me, wide-eyed. He tried to
shake my hand, but I ignored him, so he settled for a little wave and a mumbled
greeting. “You went and had another kid?” I asked. “Sort of. After
your mom left, I didn’t really know what to do. I was pretty sure I knew where
she went, but I couldn’t convince myself to run after her. I’d offered her
everything to stay, and she still wouldn’t. I regretted not being able to look
after my son, but your mom was a grown-up. I didn’t try to interfere with the
decision she made. I kept looking for a family here in Iowa. I ended up
marrying a nice woman who already had a few kids of her own, one of them being
Ryan.” He tousled Ryan’s hair. I grew angrier. “So you just gave
up on me? You never thought I was important enough to come find? It took some
chance meeting at a damn spelling bee for me to even know you existed?” “Steven!
Language,” my mom tried to chastise me. I turned on her. “And you. You took
me away from my own father, my only chance at a normal childhood, just to try
to fulfill some stupid dream. Was it really worth it, Mom? Ruining your son’s
life to work as a stupid maid?” I was being cruel, but I didn’t care. I thought
my mom was supposed to look out for me, and here I was finding out that she
barely even cared. She was too concerned with herself to even think about how
her decisions influenced me. She stayed silent. My father tried to take some
pressure off of her. “I didn’t come
after you because I had other priorities” I threw my hands up in the air. He
had other priorities. Of course. I looked at Ryan. This kid right here was his
other priority. He wasn’t even actually related to him, just the product of
some chance marriage. But somehow he had been able to keep my dad for himself,
and I was left alone. I walked past Ryan, Mike, and my mom, not making eye
contact with any of them. I hoped my mom didn’t follow me. I could barely stand
to look at her. “Steven, come on.
You know I care about. You’re my son.” I waved a hand behind me. Then why
didn’t you come after me? Why didn’t you ever do enough to show you cared?
Shouldn’t you have been a better father to me? Is Ryan really that important?
Does he even deserve it like I do? I wanted to turn and throw a thousand more
questions at him, grill him for everything he’d ever done or not done. But I
couldn’t. I just walked away without another word. Being second hurts. © 2012 audioslaver756Author's Note
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