Unknown Questions

My little rants...

It takes everything for me not to run to some place new. I crave for the unknown that so many fear. What I want is not here, and I’m afraid it may never be with so much familiarity surrounding me. I don't take this lightly but I don’t want to fight for something I don’t want, something that may inevitably make me miserable. This is not because I am too lazy or weak but because I don’t know which direction I hope my life will go. Each time it's brought up I question my path even more. I don’t know that I want what’s safe and secure because it’s agonizing. I want to embrace who I am, and I’m a person who knows she’s different. It’s hard to admit even to myself that I may want something we've never even considered to be plausible or the fact that I may not be like everyone else. I have no excuse for what I have and haven’t done but today I am taking a stand and admitting to everyone, including myself, that I can’t change this part of me and it’s something I have to accept. I don’t want to fail but I don’t want to go through life not living.

Reviews

[Samuel Dickens]

You've done a very good job of expressing your thoughts and feelings. Maybe it won't be a surprise to know that others who are a bit different, myself included, have had similar thoughts. I couldn't run with the herd and be like them, and still can't. In fact, after all these years, I rather take pride in it. By all means, be yourself and don't conform to the will of others, just so you can fit in. The world never has too many rogues.

[_Oblivion_]

Thank you! I agree, the world doesn't have many rogues.