Awaking to a new day. Angered, disappointment to be awake, heaviness within seconds as you reach for the time. In the moment, you viewed the messages, emails, notifications within seconds awaken. Every notification is obligations, responses, responsibilities you dread, waste of life, meaningless and empty. Death, Blackness, nothing, ending and the infinite non existence with each day awaken to the spent time. The minutes, seconds, bleeding routines, regrets, pressures, stress, anxiety, depression daily angers this existence. I have an incredible hatred for society. Humans unique short existence is beautiful and one that.... Unsure what "that" or "beauty", empty thoughts to even imagine. The sadness felt attempting to envision existence in beauty with respect to the fragility of life. Humanity in this cruelty, suffering present existence is true loneliness. Humans exist in survival primitive cruelty in fear of death and fragility.