Why Can't I Find Yesterday

My half of a colaboration between friends

 

 

 

Why Can't I Find Yesterday


If only I could understand
These feelings of utter confusion

It is so much easier
To just  silently drift away
Into a range of comfort
That only those like me
can experience truly

If only I could escape
From this emptiness

Lost within a place
Behind the dark side of the moon
Where memories elude me
And I beg to see
Only a spark of whom I am

My Grandchildren's names lost to me
Their laughter as they play
Should bring me memories of yesterday
But nothing is within my grasp

Nothing Is There!

I get so angry at times
Lost within many years ago
Yet not able
To recall my yesterday

Anger was never my emotion
Or was it



Where is my Mommy?
I want my Mommy!!

No longer allowed to see.

I cannot see.
Why can't I see??!!!



I search this vast nothingness
That I am trapped within
To find something ... anything
That would bring to me
Some sort of recognition

I am lost ...
Utterly and completly lost!

Within this darkness
That finds no name
I have found my farewell

And to the few
That can somehow understand ...

I ask you
To explain it all to me



Pray for my family
For I am lost to them as well

That is ...
If I have a family at all

I own the image of many faces
All of us lost to what once was

I rest now
Beyond the darkside of the moon
Where seasoned soldiers
Remain to still find reason to cry

Let me be alone ...

Remember me when darkness calls

It is now
Within this sanctuary
That I must remain to fall




This was origionally a challenge write
The challenge being...
Free Verse and Phrases

Phrases
The dark side of the moon
and
Let me be alone



AspiringAngel

 

 

Reviews

[Blue Sky]

It's got to be one of the finest
and one that touches with that understanding
of a certain condition and circumstances
that enable the inability to truly know
memories of yesterday.. I sense alzeihmers or some sort
as the reason for not finding that yesterday,
Pray for my family is really very touching
I brings a surmount of understanding
as to the reason to be left alone, it that
it inhibits a sadness to that reality
and a most wonderful presentation
it's utterly beautiful!!

[Legion]

Not sure if you were attempting to show the perspective of someone with alzheimers or not, but that is what I got out of it. Very well done. Such horror to know that you don't know what you thought you knew. :(

[THE LOST ROSE]

The reality of your poem is that this can happen to anyone right now. You don't have to be old to forget yesterday. So un explain event can happen to one's health and they would no longer remember yesterday. That is why I pray and worship the Lord because every day I can wake with my right mind is a miracle and a blessing. This poem should open eyes for all that reads. My eyes were open but I think they were starting to close. Thanks for nudging me. I truly enjoyed this write!

[Rain]

This was poignant. It reminded me of "The Long Good-bye" about Ronald Reagon. What a horrible way to die. What a horrible way to watch a loved one die. This is one of your best. Rain..

[Theresa Anne]

I can't even imagine not knowing a person you have loved. Looking at them as if they were a stranger. This kind of pain is too much for ones heart. Just recently I watched the movie, "The Notebook"...this was a love story that had me crying for days. This disease is horrible and steals the memories one is suppose to have for a lifetime. I feel for the ones left on the other side of this disease, waiting for that brief moment of clarity. Excellent piece.

[kurrupted]

Well penned. Its really sad that this ailment is really taking a toll on our families and wellwishers...it's a terrifying situation that lingers on, haunting loved ones who see their own taken down by this disaese. I know what i went through and still am..thank you for sharing this piece.

[David Lewis Paget]

Touching, rather frightening at my age, especially when I forget what I had for breakfast. (My wife says that's just because I want a second breakfast). :-)
But seriously, Alzheimers is becoming more and more common in our modern world, and one wonders why? Is it a dietary thing, the result of cooking in aluminium saucepans all those years ago, or something in the over processed foods we find on the supermarket shelves?
I watched my mother's decline with a similar condition, and it's not a pretty sight. A bit close to home, but, well done.
(I wrote a similar piece in the past fortnight called 'What Happened to the Day?' You might like to take a look.
David.

[beancountersar]

Very good description of such a hideous disease. I have seen it in family members and you couldn't have said it better. I'm just awestruck by this one.
Well done!!