What Is Now My World ~ Four

What is Now My World~ Part Four     A refill 'My Lady'? ... I found myself looking up To meet the gaze of the most crystal blue eyes I had ever seen. They took me by surprise And I became captured within Their hypnotic spell Are you alright 'My Lady'? ...     The passing of time Has revealed A certainty of trust Lost within the gentleness Of Anthony's smile and the Crystal blue of his eyes I remain today to fall   Those magnificent eyes That dance when his Smile is flashed my way   His eyes... That seem to read my soul Without a single word Being spoken between us Many stolen moments Now have been spent together Within this small cafe Of second chances There is an urgency to return When I am forced to again step Back into my reality   It does not matter That we have only imagined The exchange of Vanilla creamed coffee Nibbled from eager lips This... is the reality I now seek as my own There is a tenderness That radiates from him...   I feel it each time The touch of his hands brushes my hair away From haunted eyes Revealing the marks of What is now my world Away from this sanctuary The sound of his laughter The softness of his voice as he Speaks to me of the   What could be's Has given me the courage That I have needed for Far too long Merciless games of self fulfillment upon unwilling player has always Been my reality of love Is there something else? Is there truly something else? True horror Remains the picture As I continue to be Raped and beaten At the hands of my husband For unjustifiable crimes Known only to himself My heart pounding as Shaking hands turns the key To enter prison walls   Will it be today that I will arrive again to Hell Just after the Master Has returned as well? If so a surprise awaits him Stepping into insanity... To think I can leave Cruelty blessed behind me Perhaps I have lived insanity All of my lifetime Could it really be possible For myself and my children To find an ounce of compassion And love in this world we Are now entrapped within Small and cold within The pocket of my sweater Leaves complete terror To find strength Today what must be done Is awaiting my presence And my death ... ... My death may be Awaiting my soul What Is Now My World The Confrontation Where the Hell you been? Where are my kids? Perhaps a new lock should Be placed on this door That only I can open! Huh . . . Huh!!!!!!!!! A stinking note from you Telling me to get out Before you get home! Have you lost your mind?!!!! Lady, if you have a death wish You had best be making it now! The chair between us found its usual place to the wall I tried to run ... He was faster He had his hands Around my throat And I felt myself Loosing consciousness I broke his hold Only to be grabbed Once more Here it comes The Fling! After all these years Why is it That I can't seem to keep from Eating these walls That B*****d! I whirled to face him And as I did He found himself facing The barrel of my pistol. How's it feel Robert? To not know what your next moment will bring? The kids are with my Mom They will be staying with her For awhile while I Put my life Back together again And you?.... You can rot in Hell As far as I am concerned! This is Over Do you hear me! Over!!!!! Oh ... Noooo! I wouldn't take a step closer Because I will drop you Where you stand ... I swear I will! Now you get your stuff and you get the hell Out of my life! Oh And Robert ... Don't stalk me! Don't come back here! Don't even think about trying To snatch the kids because I swear to you if you try I will hunt you down Shoot you and swear That I found you dead If I am caught Then so be it! To be rid of you forever Is a fair trade For any jail time I would draw After all ... I have spent my time In Purgatory and after living with you I should Be almost square with God For sins that found no reason   Perhaps jail time for killing you might afford me a true 'why' So you see Robert I have nothing to loose By putting an end To your miserable life! The way I see it I would be doing this world A huge favor ridding it Of yet another one of Saten's angels You don't believe I will pull this trigger? Try me!!!!! Just try me!!!!!!!!!! To Be Continued ...    Aspiring Angel

 

Reviews

[Samuel Dickens]

Hmmm. I suspect there is at least some truth to this story, and perhaps it's all true. At any rate, it's a sad tale. I can't understand wife beaters. What kind of sick satisfaction could come from slapping and knocking someone who's much smaller and weaker than you around? And what kind of solution to anything is violence? Thank you for sharing that with me, Lesa.

[Rain]

"The cafe of second chances" What a brilliant line. I have to tell you, the woman and child abuse are my red buttons. It is the lowest form of behavior.
I was so happy to see her say " That's all!!" Rain..

[Michael X]

Lesa, this plays out with theatrical effect in form and presentation, wow, stunning
and excels on the page at leading the reader to another place and time, felt like
I was watching a movie, and the way you played it through opens the story line
in many avenues, a saga unfolding and has lasting effect, beautifully written.

[Arthur Henn]

Lesa, I am speechless upon how well you are writing this and the flow. I was wanting to leave a review on each one but I had to keep reading and now here I am leaving a review. (You have captured me in the world of prose that unfolds heavily and strong being a powerful write. I can't wait to read more of what you have coming.

Arthur Henn