Poem 11/15/17

A poem about the everyday struggles of anxiety

I am struggling.

A constant ball of panic.

Nerves bound so tight

That one rip could unravel 

Everything I’ve worked so 

Hard to keep contained

Angry Butterflies that cannot escape

Trapped by the knots that

My stomach creates to keep them in place

A feeling of abandonment

From someone I have never met

Disappointment in the eyes of strangers

As if they know the enclosure that I keep myself in

A compound of unbalanced chemicals

Threatening to unleash the dread and agony that I feel 

If I show one emotion, I’ll show them all

Soon they’ll see, the insecurities that claim me

What I try to hide, how hard it is to conceal 

Soon you’ll see, that I am nothing more than that constant ball of panic

That gets kicked around, until it is no longer in sight. 

Reviews

[Levi]

To much explaining, needs more poetic techniques

[denise]

I understand (in a differnt context) that constant battle to appear normal - to keep hidden those emotions that are screaming inside