Flash back

some things are a nightmare for life

I was looking at the screen seeing this man with a hidden mask. I always wonder why he never showed his face to anyone else. Why is his face always hidden?.My racing thoughts stop running when i saw the clock and then I got up and went to the hall way and call out Ayesha . Ayesha came running out of her room asking me what happened I told her that Ayesha I am going to go visit Umar in the jail. But Ayesha said but Papa,wo umar tuo. Wo tuo. Ayesha said something that ripped my chest in half. I ran back in my room as hot tears wet my cheeks.
Flashback
I was walking in the Jungle of India looking for Umar. He didn’t came home for the past few hours. 
Umar you can't hide from me, did you hear me I shouted
Hot sweat drain down my face as I was holding my wip.
Umar if you don’t come out right now. I will hit you a lot.
I will beat the crap out of you.
I could sense his smell near me.
Umar last chance
But, still he didn’t came out
As I scan a little more I saw him hiding behind the large mango tree
As I walk toward him I could see his tiny body trying its best to save him from me.
As I reach him I pull him from his hair. He was scream on the top of his lungs. I saw tears felling down his cheeks. 
I push him toward the ground and then I twist his hand hardly and I start to screamed even
My anger cells will not let me calm down.
I wipped him with my belt as hard as i could .
Hot tears fell down his cheeks
He started to beg for forgiveness
Sorry sir. I will not do it again.
No, where were you? i was waiting for you in home for the past hour. Where were you?
Sir.I…
Answer me d****t
I went to visit Ma’s grave in the Graveyard 
Who’s grave
Ma
That respond anger me so I hit him harder.
She is not your ma! She is my daughter Ayesha’s mother not yours
Did you hear that! You b*****d child!
Now get up before I beat you more.
as I saw him getting up.I saw that he was having a lot of trouble getting up because of the brusies but I didn't help him because my hatred for him didn't allowed me to do that.
we walked home
he went to the kitchen to cooked food
in a half a hour we came out and serve food
he knew that he was not allowed to eat with us and he has to sit on the cold floor and wait for us to finish than he was allowed to eat the leftovers
as we were eating I saw waleed got up went to umar
does it hurt?
Umar shake his head yes.
don't worry I will put this cream it will heal you fast
stop crying, you are a brave boy right?
Umar said yes Chacho (Uncle)
now smiled
Umar smiled
as I saw waleed put cream on his legs.
after waleed put cream on umar's legs.
i saw something that my eyes couldn't believe. Waleed was handing umar a piece of chocolate bar.
But, sir..Omar responded
Sir wouldn't say anything waleed responded
Really? Waleed shooked his head
Umar pick up the chocolate and then he asked me if I wanted a piece. 
Sir do you want the chocolate bar?
Sir do you want the chocolate?
I didn't replied back to him because that boy doesn't even deserved that.he is a piece of s**t and he deserve to be treated like s**t.. the thing with umar is that he always like to share.
I didn't respond back to him but someone esle did
My Papa don't want your chocolate" you piece of toy".
Eat it yourself waleed advised him. 
No chacho I don't want it.. umar made a sad face
Okay, then i know that you wouldn't eat with out sharing
right my friend..and you always says that Chacho our prophet Muhammed always say to always share your things with others.
right my buddy
Okay than lets make a deal gave some to me.
Now umar similed and he open the candy and break it in half and gave it to waleed.

After we finish eating he came up to clean up the table as usual and the rest of the family went inside their rooms I went to sit in the living room with my laptop as always.As I was working on my computer and I saw umar taking the dirty dishes to the kitchen to be clean. After a while after washing the dirty dishes he came back and sit on a naked floor with his school bag.As I was working on my laptop I glance up saw something that shocked me the thingset e was taking out were not the things I would ever gave him. He took a painting set A fully new one. As I look on I saw waleed come back with a white poster board in his hand. And sit next to umar
You Remember umar the deadline of the painting contest is tomorrow 
You have to submit..
Yes chacho i remember 
So let's start and then they begin after few minutes.. Ayesha came out to asking me to help her with her painting. But I told her that I am horrible :( at it. I told her to ask waleed so she goes waleed and ask waleed
Chacho
Yes ayesha
Chacho could you help me? With what?
Obviously the painting
Sorry I can't
That respond shocked me Ayesha ran back to me shouting See papa I told you he wouldn't help.. I got up walk toward waleed and pull him by his collar my face express my angry and I snatch the painting from umar's hand and ripped it in a pieces.
But listen bhai (brother) waleed screamed
you could have ask me once..Why did I say that But you always do what you like.. You don't even listen why i said no and you just ripped the whole painting... He work so hard on it..
my face turned red and shouted shut up before I slap you! 
hearing all of this baba came out What happened See baba look at him. This is how he talks to adults.

Waleed,baba shouted
No baba not today Today I will say everything i have to say..
What waleed just said made my face turn red.. You treat him like crap and it only because he is illegalite child of your brother and your wife.
Waleed shut up,baba screamed And he slapped waleed... And waleed went outside the house. And umar went down in the basement. Baba pulled me by his grip and take me to his room and he told ayesha to go to her room. inside baba's room baba told me to sit down bedroom so i sit down and baba sat down next to me . i soaked myself in baba. the thing that waleed said brought tears to my eyes... i thought did waleed has to say that? did he had to mention that i brain screamed why sania did you did you do that? why did you cheat me? I loved you so much. I can still remember that night when you came back home after a long period of time And I opened the door of our house and saw you after a whole one year.

 And I opened the door of our house and saw you after a whole one year.I was so glad to see. I have been looking for you everywhere. Asalam waliykum sania I have been everywhere for you.. woh mein sania was about to say something and she fainted I called the doctor to come home to check her When the doctor checked her in respond she said something that shocked me.

Congratulation Mr.imran Ali khan your wife is pregnant. That news was the worst thing that I have ever heard in my life. I ask the doctor if she was sure about this news. And the doc said she was 100% sure.. How can I be happy when the child is not mine.. When the doctor left and Sania woke up and she steal a glance at me so I went up to her and yanked her by her shoulders and asking her who's child is it She said Sohaib Ali khan.... Sohaib! I shouted My Sohaib and in respond she replied yes your sohaib. my ears couldn't believe this. My whole body seem to become numb.my brain was kept on telling me no.. never.. my gochi can never do this to me. he can't never betrayed me like this. as my numb body allowed I process to the door and went to baba's room. I knock on the door and in respond baba replied who is it.. I open the door to his room and went inside. as I walk inside I saw baba praying finishing up with his Salah. I waited until baba finished and I dragged myself to baba and I soaked myself into my baba. At that time I extremely needed his comfort. I needed his welcome when I just got rejected from my own wife.. who meant the world to me. who was mother of my child Ayesha. After Allah azz wa jal she was one I love. I even fought against baba to get her then, how could she betrayed me! baba tried his best to comfort me that day.Baba said imo don't give a heed about this issue leave everything to allah azz wa jal he is one who gives problem and he is one who solve the issue. as individuals we just have to keep patience until the help come.

As it has been said in the book "Allah doesn't burden the soul more than it can bear".

After I cried myself out.. I got up and to the cupboard and open the door and inside the cupboard I took out baba's gun I said those words sohaib you are done.. Imran baba screamed And Baba came running toward me and he slapped me on the face.. And he snatched the gun from my hands. I dropped to my knees and begged baba for the gun Baba sit down beside me and took a promise that I wouldn't do such a thing After I made the promise baba I felt the room and went back to my room only to found out that she was not in her room.I started looking everywhere for her i even shouted her name and Ayesha came running to me with a paper in her hand.

i asked her beta Ashu what is the paper that you have in your hand?

Papa, Ayesha was crying mama give this to me before she left.

i opened the letter 

Imran i have made my decision i am leaving you.. i have heard everything that you have said to baba. if you can"t control your anger and you can think about killing you own brother sohaib.i don't know what you will do with me... don't think that i am scared of you. i am not scared of dying but, i am scared of losing my child.  i can't afford to lose another child. i have lost my baby once... i just can't afford to lose another one.i have lost my abdul hadi you would think why i am saying my abdul hadi rather than saying our abdul hadi because,remember that day when you said that abdul hadi is not your child you said that i have slept with someone and from that day i decided that abdul hadi is not your child. i want my child to live ,but if i stay with you wouldn't let my child survived.

Bye, Saniya 

After i read that letter i saw Ayesha yanking my sleeve of my shirt as her tears wet my sleeves

Papa,  where is mama? when will mama come back?

don't cry my baby girl she will come back soon..i pick her up kissed her on the cheeks

its late isn't it I said

lets go to bed. i took her to  her bedroom and put her to sleep.

after a while she was sound a sleep.

day went by tuning them in to months, i looked everywhere for her like everywhere. I even wrote lots of letters to her saying sorry saying that i loved her i  would accept her and i will even accept this child of her which is not my blood ,but no reply came.. I cried and drained myself through wishing that i will be shown mercy .but i wasn't shown none at all and then one day a phone call came 

Hello, Mr. Khan 

Yes who is this 

I am Doctor William Green-berg calling from Elmurst Hospital Center informing you that there is some unwelcoming news for you ,but before the doctor could tell me what had happened the call got disconnected.

I tried recalling that number, the recepsinest picked up the phone and i was just about ask him if i can speak to the same doctor that just called me but, the televison sound distracted me so i got up from the sofa to switch off the tv ,but the news catched my eyes and the cell phone slipped off from my ear and i screamed ya Allah. I falled down on my knees as i hear the news

hello, this is Franny Kumar reporting 

i am in front of Queens Hospital Center and i am sorry to inform you all that our SK has passed away this afternoon , pray for his soul and pray that his soul may be shown mercy.

After the reporter finished, i ran for the door got in my car and start driving toward the airport to take the flight to New York..

when i reached the hospital i asked the recepoinsit where is Sohaib Ali Khan's room is.She asked me how i am related to him and in return i respond that i am his brother.

She told one of the staff to show me the room and that guy guide me to sohaib dead body ,but  as we were walking i thought that i heard the screamed of Saniya so i stopped and asked that guy what was that and he told me that oh that noise comes when a woman is giving child birth.no i shaked my head not the noise i am asking you if you know who is that woman and in respond he said i don't know ,but she came here with SK and then i knew that she was definetly saniya so i ran inside the room ,but a hand stopped me asking me what was i doing so i told him that she is my saniya, my wife so he let me enter the room as soon i reached saniya's bed, i sense the last breath of saniya and then i knew she was gone leaving behind her newborn baby

back to Present (back to baba's room)

from that day i made a promised to this child that i will make his life a living hell ,because of him i lost my beloved wife. i just didn't say that ,because Dr Green-berg told me that i told your wife that give birth to this child would be risking ,but she still agree to birth this child.in the other words this child was the cause of my wife's death.

My thoughts got disturbed when Waleed came in Baba's room.

before he could even say a word i told Baba

Baba, tell him to leave 

But Ana (1)(older brother) 

He started to to cry.. tears started to dripped as rain

he dropped to his knees folding his hands asking me for forgiveness.

I am sorry Ana. I am very sorry. i had no intention to hurt your feelings. the words just popped out of my month.i didn't mean them. Please forgive me 

Baba.. he winned 

tell Ana to forgive me

Baba do you know who hate to be tickle..

Ana! he shouted 

And they both started to tickle me almost making me pee on myself.

that changed my mood and i forgive Waleed 

The next day I took ayesha to school on my car and Omar to walk to school as usual because his value was not that enough to even sit in my car.when we reached there Ayesha ran off to her friends and then I heard Adbul Hadi calling me from the back so I turned around and i saw that Abdul hadi was dragging his leg brace as he walk toward me I wait until he reached me.

 Asalam waliykum, Principal sir do you where is Omar? 

I shake my head no I similed

may I know why are you looking for him?

Oh its nothing

Are you sure?

Yes he shaked his head

. Then he left

Abdul hadi is clever boy and he is Omar 's best friend I am sure he was hiding something. The thing that started to worry me is where Omar could be.I started to ask a couple of people about him but no one knew where he was.later the preparations of the painting contest distracted me. The teachers had well decorated the school park.I was asked to sit in the front ,because even thought I was the parent i was also the principal of the school so, I had to gave the award to the winner.as I sit down Ayesha came running down the hall in white dress. I hugged her tightly and told her to sit on the chair next to me.The families that came there were sitting in familes arranged in groups in round tables.

Waleed started the open speech.

Asalam waliykum wa rak ma tul lahi was bara katu (may the peace ,mercy and blessing of God be with you all) all the students and the staff of Al Hasan School May the mercy of God be upon you. May God bless this day. Today is the day that our students finish their painting project and today is the day when the student who is the winner will get his award in sha allah (If God wills) so let's begin I am going to call our principal Mr.Imran Ali khan to gave this award to the winner.

  I got to the stage and Ahmed handed me the Trophy and a slip which had the name of the winner. As I read this slip. It says "May the blessing of God on whom this award goes too he or she is one and only the hardest and the unique winner of all.and here is its painting.as I was about to turn around to look at the painting Ayesha shoutes "Papa" pointing at the painting so I turned around saw I image of my self sitting on my desk chair working on my laptop while umar is standing painting me.

I was shocked to see myself painted this way. It was so well and elegant.my thought were constantly racing saying that how could he draw this at a such a young age.I am sure waleed didn't help him because he is horrible at it just like me so how did he do that.my thoughts got disturb why waleed tap me on my shoulder

Ana are you okay? so i nodded my head and said i am fine.

and I turned around read the rest."This award goes to Omar Ali Khan"Omar didn't show up I said it again Omar Ali khan but no respond came by. As I called the third time still no respond I saw all the eyes wonder for Omar but none found him.That anger me. My thoughts were racing where he could be.I screamed Omar.My face turned red.and I made a fist.Waleed try to calm me down but I shrugged him and made my way down the hall to look for Omar. Some of the teachers follow me down. We went looking for umar in all different ways of the school. Hot sweat was dropping down my face as I stomped my way.

I looked everywhere for him ,bu he was no where to be found ,but then i remember my office which was at the front entrance so I went there.when I got there I saw Omar crying crying a lot softly I was about to ask him anything waleed rushed behind me..

What happened Omar why are you crying? Chacho (uncle) I...i am sorry I can't take the award

But why Omar Because I don't deserve it and he was crying looking at me... No umar

Please Chacho

Okay,but you have to Stop crying

Omar stopped crying and now similed

so Omar similed And all of us went back to the hall the award was given to Hatim he was in four grade he had second great painting.

After the ceremony.All of us went home. through out the way my body was full tense with anger and my brian was telling me that Omar will have to Pay hard for this. As we got home. I waited until umar came home.and when he got home, I pulled him by the arm and dragged him down the basement and closed the door behind me and then I push him toward the ground and took my belt out and start spanking him and I start shouting at him

How dare you insult by not taking the award

Sir I.. I...

Sir kya

 I called you 3 times and you didn't came.Do you think I am your servant? or what?  And I spank him more He starts weeping

Answer me d****t Sir I..

I signed to him And how dare you made a portrait of me..

Sir I... waleed Chacho said to make it. He said everybody will love it

Ohh so now you are blaming waleed for your mistake.

No sir I swear he did

Will you do this mistake again? I screamed

No  And then I got up left the basement when I got there waleed was the first one to ask is everything okay..and my respond was a slap. Always remember this one thing stay away umar from that boy. I wont waleed responded I slapped him again If you like to stay in my house you will follow my rules got it I snapped back at him.. Waleed shakes his head Yes.

Few days passed everything was going alright.as I told waleed this not come near umar so he did. But one day I got a call from the school reguarding umar in my home and the teachers want a conference So the next day I went for meeting Scene in the conference room Umar and I are sitting while the teacher are discussing Then one of the teacher spoke up. We just wanted to say that umar is in lot of trouble Umar was sitting next to me I could see his legs were shaking out of fear and his face turn red out of fear. What did he do? I tried my best to hide my anger inside me His only crime is that he is smarter and intelligent than his classmates Huh? Mr.khan you still don't understand Look at the child's iq its way above anyone in his class level. Huh? I replied We were noticing tha It is way to easy for him to stay in stay in this level because the thing we are teaching in 1st grade is not for him even 2 or 3 grades are not for him.we need your permission to gave him a exam to check his IQ level. At first when i heard this I shocked and amazed by it Where did the boy got the talent from In my house I am only one whose IQ is above It could be that he got this from me Then I similed and said go ahead "Are you sure sir Yes I similed Then Ahmed my assitant told umar to get up and go to the next room to take the test After a hour umar returned with Ahmed. Ahmed was similing he came up to me and he said al-humduillah all praise to god everything went out well. his level ma sha Allah is very high al humduillah I think we should put him in 4th grade and in sha Allah with allah 's grace he will processed from there.

Congratulation Mr.khan you should be proud to have such a bright son.He told umar to go hug me and umar run toward me and hugged me tightly. I could see the happiness on his face as he hugged me.after the meeting was over. All the teachers left the room I shrugged Omar off me and told him to leave the room.my whole body was filled with anger.sweat was falling down my cheeks.I didn't know how to react to this piece of information.

Was this info joy or its was a sadness.my brain was kept on telling me Omar's happiness is never my victory and it never will be.

It is way to easy for him to stay in stay in this level because the material that we are teaching in 1st grade is not for him even 2 or 3 grades are not for him.we need your permission to gave him a exam to check his IQ so then we would know what is his level and which grade should we place him in...At first i was shocked by where did the boy got this talent from. In the family i was the only one whose the golden spoon in his mouth and now him, this boy, this slum is going to compete me who do he think he is .

my non stop thoughts got distrubuted by Ahmed.Principal sir so do we have your permission? 

No i respond.

Huh?No but sir why?

Well, (i didn't what excuse to give so i had to say something so i replied) he will not be able to handle learning with older students. we will not be able to comprehend material with older kids.he willbecomea socal target of all his classmates.

But sir Ahmed replied

Please! No butss and i got up and left the room. to my jeep and got the car started and headed home.

In home

I slammed the door to my house went inside staright to my room, and thenI started breaking things in the room.i was gone insane that i want to hurt my self myself but, someone's comfort calmed me down. i felt a grip who was no other than Omar. he hugged me tightly and the words that came out his month were "it okay sir, everything is going to be alright Allah is with you he will take care of you please calm down, don't hurt yourself, omar doesn't want no one expect you" and after that i shurgged him off and he falled on the floor and then i bend down grab him by the collar and said these words dont ever touch me you piece of trash, who do you think that you are that will calm me down. you are biggest problem in my life and you think you will ever become the ease to my wounds.Never! Never! you will never become that cure, do you hear that.

I could sensed that Omar was numb so i repeated my question but still he didn't respond so thsi time i yanked his hair but this time he gave a shocking response. he got up and left the room so i followed him down. he went to the kitchen. i was about to go after him but Ayesha stopped me .. after a while omar came out with food and he placed it on the dining table and then left for the kitchen.after a little while he returned and sat down in the naked floor on the entrance of the dining room door.  he waited until we finished and i would allowed him to eat the leftovers. but today was something different when we were done and I was about to leave the table, omar came up to me and handed me over his school bag and a note attached to the bagand then he left for the basement. i read the note it said please burn this bookbag. i wa shocked by what i just read. The child who loves this books is telling me to burn them then i futhure read the note it said that he does't want to hurt me so if i don't want him to study futhure than he will just quite his studies. this angered me hot sweat drained me so i went staright to the basement.when i reach there omar wasnt there i screamed his name  minutes passed by he didn't came than i heard sound coming from the bathroom so i walk over there and guess what who did i find. he was hiding behind the shower curtain. i could sense his body trembling out of fear, without feeling his fear i ripped open the curtans and yanked him out from the bathtub and pushed him toward the ground and than i took the belt that hanging on the hook of the bathroom door and start spanking omar with it. tears start falling down his cheeks and he start begging for me to stopped.

you think i am your slave who you will tell me what to do, how dare you tell me to burn those books huh?and who are you that will decide if you are quiting or not quiting the studies.

Huh answer me d****t

and i spanked him more

sorry sir he winned

and you think that you can build a place in my heart by doing such things then you are wrong. you are piece of ghetto who no one will ever wants to touch or talk to,.

and even though if you iq is above average you will still stay in the same classas your age group,you hear?

i was about to leave the basement but than omar question stopped me

sir but why?

Because i don't wanted you to compete my daughter Ayesha or go above her level because she is my daughter who will always stay above you and you don't have the value of even awere  getting close to her you heard that 

Jee (Yes) sIr

Author's Note

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