pain

i just look up at the sky wishing to have a moment just one moment to not feel hurt and pain if only i was happy and everything was alright if the cuts on my wrists would disappear my life would be better but that cant happen my answer is death i don't want to die i just don't want to hurt there is no other way too sad to eat too mad to think will anything ever be the same who am i and what am i supposed to be the bomb inside me is ticking and soon will blow destroying everything and everyone around me every piece of me gone no one will notice my absence and thats ok because no one should ever have to hurt the way i do no one