one time

is it real or is it an allusion I remember a time when you were there a time when you really cared but now you remain oblivious to everything and everyone around you, you turned to drugs and I started cutting we no longer show affection and you seem to always be gone you don't notice my behaviors what will it take for you to notice me again a life that is mine that is my gift to you, you are my beholder what will you do maybe when I am gone you will see everything we had you will notice that I was something you needed and you will see that I was in need of you to need me live or die what will you decide I am waiting quietly you have to make it quick just as the time ticks I hope you change as I start to fade my lover my friend my masquerade