In the Pit

Don't go to school. Don't want to go to work. Don't want to get up at all. I don't even care.

Lying wide awake

Life seems to be something I can't shake

Yet again, I have that feeling that I don't want to get out of bed

I won't, so instead

I will stay here thinking about what I've done

Who I've become

Feeling worthless

I am not impervious

This feeling is hanging on me like a soaked shirt

I am dirt

Used to be full of joy

Or was that just something I used as a decoy?

I can't even tell anymore

Just like everything else that I don't have an answer for

When reality hits

I know I can't keep up this guard

Knowing I'm going to die in this bed alone

There is no way getting out of this crazy a*s zone

But it's okay

Nobody ever loved me anyway

That's fine and dandy

So stop feeding me this bullshit and candy

When I learn to block people out I'll be fine

No more crying

No more pain

But nothing to gain

If I'm okay with being by myself

Don't need to live on a higher shelf

I'm done

I am who I've become.

Reviews

[Zoltan]

Indeed. Life if full of bad and painful things and will never turn into a fairytale. What you have to do is learn to fare among the reefs and be able to enjoy the sunshine when it breaks through the clouds.

[ashleymarie]

Extremely true! c:

[ashleymarie]

Yes, at this point that is all we can do!
Thank you! c:

[TTina]

We all have those moments and the truth is that's when we learn the most valuable lessons such as - be yourself!

Keep up the good work! :)

[ashleymarie]

Thank you!