You Became a GhostA Poem by AshleyDeyPoetryA poem written in the form a voicemail that will never be sent to a guy I started building a relationship who ghosted me for someone else. Heartbreak really sucks but it is certainly inspiring.Hey It’s me I know it’s been awhile since we last talked I know you’ve moved on But I just wanted to say I’m sorry that I wasn’t good enough That I made you feel the need to walk away In search of something better But I swear to you that I tried I gave you everything I had But I guess you wanted more While I had to fight for even an ounce in return And I’m sorry I wasn’t who you thought I was But let’s be honest You built me up in your head As someone I was not All I did was pick up the role and try to play the part Really though, I guess I was just playing the fool Being dragged along for your amusement Was that good? Do you like me now? And you would answer yes Sometimes lying through your teeth So I kept going Trying to be what you wanted But I was not the last girl you’d bring home Though I wanted to be And that may have been my biggest mistake of all I let myself fall and fooled myself Thinking you’d be there to catch me You wanted this too, right Well, no, I was wrong And I’m sorry if you see this message as wasting your time But I think we can call it even Because you wasted so much of mine How many plans did I cancel How many hearts did I break While I wasted my time pining after you Now you’ll probably never hear this And I guess that’s fine My feelings stopped being a concern for you Long before you walked out the door You became a ghost Actively haunting me Almost as if you could see my pain You played the sadist But I guess this too is all just speculation I don’t hate you anymore for how you left me But I’d say I do for what you left me with Something you will never know But what I do know all too well Is the pain of that loss and the absence of you Because of you I no longer feel whole Because of you I fear people breaking down my walls I am unable to be vulnerable again But I’m trying I’m trying to live with the pain To move so far beyond you Because all you could ever give me Was the broken and bloodied glass That you used to rip apart my insides And tear out my heart Maybe that’s why I haven’t found any peace You cut out my heart Like some rotten piece of meat Still I know you’ll never see this Though I wish you would And I hope this gives me closure Another thing you never could © 2018 AshleyDeyPoetry |
StatsAuthorAshleyDeyPoetryWIAboutHi there! My name is Ashley and I am an aspiring poet. I write about a lot of personal experiences including my mental illnesses. Poetry is a way to express myself and try to find closure with things .. more..Writing
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