we were okay

before you came along

i was certain i was strong

life was private, but never quiet.

kept to myself

and laughed for everyone else.

never fake, always me

but some things werent for sharing.

 

then along came you, unlike anyone i ever knew.

i started off a little hesitant,

but days with you were time well spent.

then you knocked on the door

to a place no one had been before.

i touched the knob with caution,

unsure if i was ready to let you in.

you, you gave me confidence,

talked me into something senseless.

you traipsed right into me

without so much as wiping your feet.

i told you things i have never shared,

and thought maybe, just maybe, that you cared.

i brought out the old memories,

and you flipped through them with me.

we were together, and we were okay.

i didnt want it any other way.

how was i supposed to know that you were scared

of all that you had found there?

 

some things unravel slowly,

coming apart thread by thread, seam by seam

it wasnt so with us.

 

letting you in was a big mistake

cuz it made you hit the brakes

throw it in reverse and hightail it out of there

leaving me behind, with no one who cared.

so i walk the halls of my heart alone,

wondering why i let you in my fortress of stone.

my past is an unruly beast, one that you helped me release.

now i must face it on my own,

along with other monsters unknown.

you left a mess behind

and now that youre gone it is all mine.

anger and hurt rip through my chest.

why did i ever think you knew best?

as my heart burns with this painful fire,

i realize my situation is dire.

i cant do this on my own,

but no one's inside these walls of stone.

the doors are shut forever

because thanks to you i knew better.

so i retreat back inside, into a convenient corner i find.

it's so much easier to hide.

i wont be coming out for a long, long time.