Dear Daddy (a letter I will never send)

Letter I will Never Send is an ongoing folder I have been keeping for the last few years. These will reappear often.

I know your not good at this, and its so strange now sitting back and watching you try to be. I respect the effort but calm down man, this is not us, its not what we do. Your no good at being a Dad and I am no good at being a daughter, we don't even attempt to put up the front. We make it work though. You are my much older, not so much wiser friend who advises me to not be good per say but to be good at it, lets me know when i am being an a*s, and reminds me that people change. I have been your second chance, an oppertunity to show the world "Aka our home town". you can and have done something right. I know she does not understand how we can never say I love you, only speak once a month, and cuss each other at the drop of a hat, fail to recall the others birthdays (every year haha) and really not be overly concerned or protective of the other at all, and still love each other. Don't let that change us though, don't question your methods. I love us just the way we are. I don't wish for anyone else to have been my father, I don't judge you for the things you did before me, and I don't have any hard feelings against you for my childhood.

I am however, a little worried for you right now. I feel like when Mamaw died, we both became orphans and now your so much more aware of me and Robert because shes not here to be that one normal solid piece of family for us. Don't worry about me though Daddy, I am a big girl now, and solid and normal are not what I need or value most.  -ps. she would be so proud of you