My Lord and me

a conversation with my Lord

Depart from me for I am defiled

Condemned, sinner, a prodigal child

With guilt tormenting my inmost conscience

I should be deprived of Your holy presence.

My most beloved child, please stay

Let not your fears drive me farther away

It's been a long time since you called me friend

Do you have a moment with me to spend?

Why, oh Lord? I don't understand

All this time You have withheld Your hand

Where's Your glory and Your celestial host

Especially just when I needed them most?

I was, I am, and I will always be

Your God, your love--all yours for eternity

I've always been with you every second of your life

In joy and in sorrow, especially in strife.

But why does it seem like I was always alone

Despite all the prayers I had uttered and known?

I lived my days dying, I was consoled in grief

My faith, once strong, turned to hateful disbelief.

I know, My child, what you have been through

And it's never in My nature to just abandon you

Your eyes failed to see, your mind failed to know

All the graces that I never missed to show.

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Lord, I am sorry for my careless neglect

My sins stem from my refusal to reflect

I was wrong, please forgive the faith I lack

If I repent, will You still accept me back?

Child, there is one thing that you need to learn

My perfect love is not at all yours to earn

But to accept from My heart's overflowing bounty

I desire not that you again depart from me.

In your flock I was once a stray sheep

But now, my Lord, I am Yours to keep

Comfort me with your song and may it always be heard

That wolves may flee knowing I'm with my Shepherd.

You can only hear me without the world's noise

For I speak in silence, I am your heart's voice

Stay with me, and grieve me not with your loss

But if you do, find your way back to the cross.

Author's Note

Photo credit: Google images

Reviews

[Eric Pudalov]

A wonderful and touching expression of your faith, Arzel! And I enjoyed how you wrote it as a dialogue between you and Jesus, rather than just from one side or the other. In fact, I can almost imagine that He would express words this way, somehow (or at least in communicating with you).

[Blue]

I didn't know some people are still commenting on my old account. :) Thanks, Eric! Anyway, I now understand what you mean when you told me you want to come up with cool pictures. I like your new avatar. :P

[Eric Pudalov]

Oh, you're welcome! And I'm glad you like the avatar - it's a pic from my honeymoon in New Orleans. YUM!

[Ency Bearis]

Spiritually uplifting verses you presented here, nice one.

[Blue]

Thanks, Ency.

[Maya]

This awesome, I can relate to this in so many ways and it so true that we need to shut out the worlds noise in order to hear his voice. Very well put thanks for sharing I enjoyed reading it.

[Blue]

Thank you, Maya. :)

[Einstein Noodle]

lessons learned and re-learned eh!? i have deep respect for the faith reflected in this poem... i think it is well done but risky ... confessional type poems are always risky .. but though i think this is personal ... it is also distant enough to allow anyone to relate... such wonderful words of advice from such a young woman ... always amazed Blue! nice job!
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[Blue]

Thank you so much, Einstein... Sorry, I haven't kept in touch for quite some time. This is my new account, by the way.

[Einstein Noodle]

yes... i got your request .. i am so glad you include me at your new place :))
E.

[Blue]

Of course I remember you. I am always flattered by your compliments, you know. :) I'll read your works soon, Einstein.

[WILDERNESS]

Incredible, I was just astounded by the message delivered here most eloquently. You r a truly gifted poet and this poem simply splendid.

[Blue]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you like it.

[Eddie Davis]

Very beautiful, Blue, you convey the redemption of Jesus Christ perfectly. This is a poem that deserves to be hung up on a wall and read every morning by those who feel uncertainty in their faith. You clearly have a strong theological grasp of the nature of Christ.

[Blue]

Thanks a lot, Eddie. This is one of my few favorites that tackle faith.