Waiting

I sent a message to him at 3:06

I'm waiting for him to respond 

He hasn't texted in a while

And now I'm a bit nervous

Even though he left me a while back

I still worry for his composition

I still love him

He does not love me

I think he will respond with a quick 

"Are you ok?" 

And it would make me smile

He doesn't care anymore

I'm trying to catch a fish in the air

I tell myself

"He can't save you anymore"

I think I'm telling the truth

He used to tell me he would never hurt me

Apparently he meant physically 

Because he hurt me emotionally

Or maybe he just lied

I tell everyone I'm ok

Me and him still talk

But not in the way that I always hoped he would 

And I always hesitate when he walks over

"Your'e overreacting" they say

"Get over it" they say

"He didn't deserve you" they say

I am overreacting, I won't get over it, I was too bad for him

I will be too bad for everyone

It's 5:43 now

no response

why?