As I Lie here alone

thoughtful poem on faith

As I lie here alone
My thoughts and feelings surround me.

I wonder about life and love
My pain and fears surround me.

I run from the thoughts that plague my very soul
I turn to solace from those that I have gone to before
I meditate upon the words that have given me comfort in the past,
And when I think that I have conquered my enemy at last,
My doubts and concerns surround me.

For a brief time I take courage from those whom I care
My friends and family surround me.

When I am with others, I draw on their strength
My shyness fades and I gain courage to go out
I work and walk amid the light of day
And gain strength from the Lord as I pray,
But then my memories and phobias surround me.

Each day comes to confront my own mortality
My life and health surround me.

I want to tell someone that I care for of my love
But the pain of past loss besets me.
I don’t want to be alone in this life
But the fears of past hurts return.
When my courage grows weak, my friends help me seek
The peace and joy that surrounds me.

But when I am sick in my bed
The sadness and grief surround me.

Too many things I don’t understand
But from what I’ve learned, I’ll trust in the hand
That guides me from the very living Word of God.
I’m told that when I’m weak then am I strong
Because I no longer trust in my own self,
But in someone greater than my fears,
Greater than my pain,
Greater than my friends,
Greater than anything the world brings against me.
I finally feel free of the shackles of life
And now I can finally in faith see,
That hope and love surround me.

As I lie here alone
My thoughts and feelings surround me.