I Love You

an Epic love poem

What is Love? I can tell you only this about love.

I love you.

My will and thoughts and emotions are united,

United all for this simple phrase.

There was a time when I could have chosen to not love you.

That was another time.

Love can be both conditional and unconditional.

Choice and no choice. Joy and pain.

Emotions can be fleeting and changing.

Love is a choice.

A choice must be decided carefully.

The path taken in love has perils.

Too many past loves have hurt too deeply to express.

Fear to love again, lest pain returns.

Defenses are instinctively brought up when feeling vulnerable.

Barriers to love.

What have I learned about love?

Love means caring despite the pain.

Love means sacrificing the self for another.

Love means that after all that,

The only reward to love is love itself.

You can see it in a parent with child.

You can read it in God’s Word.

Love is both strong and soft. Love is surrendering in order to win.

But we don’t want to give up. We want to keep a part of ourselves.

We want control, we struggle for control,

Even when seeing that nothing outside of us is within our control.

The choices.

Allow others to control us,

Or give our love to others to return that love,

Or give up love to keep control. Letting go.

Sometimes love means letting go.

Letting go of our illusions of control.

Letting go so that others can love.

Love and fear.

Sometimes working together,

Sometimes fighting each other.

So what am I trying to say?

I love you.

Once my will decided, my thoughts and emotions confirmed it.

Too late to pretend. Too late to deny.

I gave up my control. Lead by being a servant.

Let destiny and fate decide. Let faith begin.

What is the next step? What should I do about it?

How do I communicate love? Is it possible for that love to return?

Would you love me?

Too many questions, not enough answers.

A fight between my fears and my love will last the rest of my life.

Emotions that will cause strife.

The Battles.

Accept the pain, being vulnerable,

Or put up defenses that prevent closeness.

Shielded by pain, protected from love. War for love or glory.

I wanted you to know that I want to know you.

Completely. For always.

Your very soul is precious to me. Come take me by the hand.

I want to understand.

My defenses and Life’s distractions fight understanding,

But the hard work is worth it.

My feelings change from one to the other,

But the will is anchored on the fact that can’t be denied.

I love you.

Come, let me lead you through to my heart’s desire.

Love. More than physical.

Yes, Physical feelings are strong.

God made us to feel.

We choose to stay within the boundaries or be burned.

Love is a fire.

Desire to be near you is nearly overwhelming.

To see your female features. To hear your angelic voice.

To smell your womanly essence.

To touch your soft and gentle tresses.

To caress your soft and sensuous skin.

To want to kiss your sweet tasting lips,

And to hold you in my arms forever.

But the senses that excite love is not enough.

Love. More than feelings.

Emotions change from day to day.

Anger to fear to hate to love in record time.

While closeness brings together people,

Personality doesn’t easily mix. Similarities?

Nay, they don’t always work.

People are individuals, individuals are people.

God chose us this way, so what can we say?

I once wanted someone like me. Then I met that someone.

Now I know. Viva la difference. Mars and Venus.

Each bring to love’s table a different side of life.

Created to be Yin and Yan, together complete.

But with each high is a low. Every joy a sadness.

Why is this to be?

To make the rare joys we have so much more precious.

But feelings of love are not enough.

What about friendship? What about play?

What about Social interaction? What about doing things together?

What about the simple joys of talking?

What about the fun of togetherness? Those are not enough.

What then is love?

Love is more than simple words expressed.

Love is greater than its parts. Love is greater than a single person.

Love is greater than physical, emotional, social,

Or intellectual pursuits.

Love is more than a kiss. Love is more than a look.

Love is not cuddling in a nook. Love is not control.

Love is not apathetic. Love is not fear. So what is it?

Love is giving. God gives. He gave His son.

I give you my love. I give of my time.

I give my shoulder to cry on, my ears to listen,

My eyes to see your needs, my strength to protect.

I promise you my life. God chooses what that life will be.

I sacrifice my self freely. I choose to give up myself, my time,

My strength, my thoughts, my possessions,

My very heart and soul as gifts.

I offer to lead you to the greatest adventure as my gift.

The adventure of love.

We are told to love others as ourselves.

A man is told to love as he loves his own body.

A simple start to understanding love.

Simple for a simple person such as I. Mortal. Human.

Will there be obstacles to love?

Will there be problems communicating that love?

Are there more questions to be given?

Yes, there are questions.

Life is not clear to mere mortals.

But there is one thing that is clear to me.

I love you.

Do you love me?

Is there some type of man you would choose to love?

I know not the answers.

Flexible was I,

Trying to fit whatever form you chose as one you could love.

Questions asked to find out your thoughts and feelings of love.

Games played and puzzles to solve.

I sought to understand the needs, and even the wants.

Needs can be cared for. Wants are harder.

Needs and wants. What is the difference?

We need food, but want candy.

We need clothing to protect us, but want fancy outfits.

Junk food is not healthy, good food cares for our needs.

Needs cared for. As God does for us.

Perhaps true love understood might return love as well.

Even more than before. A cycle continued.

True love doesn’t want selfishly; it cares for our deepest needs.

God’s true love promises to care for our needs.

Who am I to do any differently?

So what is true love?

True love is complete.

The physical, the spiritual, the social, the intellectual, the will,

The whole of a person, the life and very breath of being.

Each part interacts, or conflicts. The will decides.

The will chooses to love. The will keeps the parts together.

The will can be unselfish, or selfish.

But when the will brings together the whole of a being,

Love is so much sweeter.

Why do we ponder so much about love?

Why is so much time spent on love?

The answer, the fact, the truth that stands firm gives way.

Everything that exists came from love.

Our own will is dependent on love. Our soul feeds upon love.

God is love.

While the body dies from lack of physical food,

The soul dies from lack of spiritual food.

The Spiritual is least understood by mere mortals.

Who truly understands love? Or God?

While I can do all I can to nourish you with my love,

I find that the love I give is replenished.

Do I even begin to understand how this can be?

No, not I. I simply live in knowing that it exists.

So what is love?

I can tell you only this about love.

I love you.