I found him huddled by the sink,
clothed in crimson flesh and mumbling a song under his labored
breath. Rocking back and forth on his tail bone, he showed no signs
of acknowledgment as I helped him to his feet. It wasn't until I
splashed his face with water that he appeared to come to his
senses.
His eyes were copper coins as he began to gasp for
air, huge and terrifying swallows that gave me shivers. He turned to
face me with a look of wonder, shaking my hand up and down with the
vigor of a newly hired businessman. He asked me how long I had been a
lifeguard, and I prompted him that I didn't know how to swim. He
failed to register my response as he thanked me profusely for saving
his life. "I could feel the liquid rising in my lungs and the
sting of brine on the lining of my throat," he whispered. "I
thought I was a goner, for sure." I told him that it was only
tap water and the closest thing to an “ocean” that she had ever
seen was the leisure center. He responded by throwing up on my
sandals.
The rest of the evening was spent in silence as I
wiped him down and changed his clothes. The only time he spoke was
when he took me by the chin and slurred, "I never understood why
people romanticized mermaids when there are plenty of people drowning
on land."
He found me on the river banks at the
witching hour with a flask of whiskey in one pocket and pebbles in
the other. He was pensive for a while before asking me why I quit my
job. I replied by explaining to him the difference between quitting a
job and being laid off. "No, not that job," he shook his
head and waved the idea off with his hand. "Your job as a
lifeguard."
I laughed at him and asked him what pills he
had taken because he should know by now that I was nothing but a
coward when it came to water. My voice cracked on the word, coward,
and he winced on my behalf. I didn't stop him as he emptied my
pockets and moved me away from the shore. We stared at each other for
a solid three minutes, and I could see my unsaid anxiety reflected in
his irises. Somehow his understanding made me feel more isolated, and
I relapsed as I ran towards the river current away from his
overbearing empathy. He bolted after me, anchoring me down with his
arms until my facade shattered in his embrace.
We held each
other until dawn. No sex, no kissing, no romance of any kind. Only
two friends that never realized loneliness affected others as much as
it did themselves.