Something Worth Living For

I used to use you all the time

You helped me but only for a while

I’d go to you whenever I’d get depressed

You were always there when I needed you

 

You helped me release some of my pain

No one had any idea about it

We’d sit in the shower for hour’s everyday

We’d be in there till the hot water ran out

 

I’d get out and go sit on my bed

You’d be right there next to me each time

I always wanted to use you a lot more

You’d always leave when it was time to

 

Once you’d leave I’d think about why I was doing it

The only answer was because it took away the pain

You would wait around till I needed you again

Once I needed you we’d do the normal routine

 

As time went on I started using you less

The pain was still there but I just didn’t want you

It got hard to handle it at times though

You always knew when it was getting two hard

 

You started getting really mad at me

You’d always call each time I started slipping up

I always tried to ignore you t

It was hard though you never gave up

 

Sometimes I’d give in and go see you

I’d stare at you for a while deciding what to do

You were strong but I became stronger

You had already left enough scares on me

 

I still think about you sometimes

I want to use you again at times when I get sad

But I can’t anymore

I won’t and can’t let you win again

 

I can handle the pain better than before

I have people who care about me a lot

I have people who love me now

Most of all I have things worth living for

Reviews

[Bridget Mcmaken]

so much sadness and pain writen in the lines. You put a lot of heart into this poem. I'm happy that you stopped and found something to live for. I love your poem it's a great poem. Keep up the great work, and I I wish you the best. I know in time the pain will be a lot easyer to live with, Take care.

[Crinkle°]

simple with a lot of emotion; I like very much. Go on to write!

[red_saphyre]

from a cutter point of view your pulling one of my tricks and talking to or about your blade.... would i be right?

[David W Moore III]

Is it me or is this about cutting? You've put your emotions out there either way. Powerful and moving, sad but with hope. Very nice piece.

[Crowley]

Yikes....super sad and a little desperate but understandable. This is a seriously heart felt a write even though the feelings were pretty dark and and pulled into the self. I loved the feeling and the angst....that was what i assume you were trying to get across....it sounded at the end like you had come to grips....but not so much. I loved this write...i could so feel it.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Sometimes people use our weaknesses as a way to control us and make them feel more important... but true loved ones will be there for support not make you feel like you can't do it alone... very deeply emotional write.

[Adelia Alighieri]

You portrayed your emotions perfectly with the continuity of the poem. Very sad but very well said.

[Michael X]

this is a really nice, subtle, soft flow. and a touching, sentimental meaning
I believe it's a well written poem, keep it up.

[the-One-with-the-Darkne..]

Very good. I like this. it flows well.

[nono]

Everyone has something worth living for! Very nicely written I love the expressions.

[Jonathan De Elvira]

"You always knew when it was getting two hard"

Man, I sure am sad if someone tht used to close with me suddenly change and become an a*s at the end...

But when I look at the bright side, loneliness n pain could train us to become stronger...Nice write there...Great flow..