If you only knew

If You Only Knew

If you only knew, the Skeletons in my closet,

If you only knew, Secrets hidden in Lockets,

If you only knew, All of my calamities, great,

If you only knew, How it was I, became me late,

If you only knew, The Great pain that by me is caused,

If you only knew, I put children, men, women paused.

If you only knew,

If you only knew,

If, you, only, knew!

I have a demon inside me

It is cruel like the Ted Bundy

It controls me, please let me go.

It’s chains hold me at its command.

Everything goes black, I’m done for.

Satan release me! Release me!

Don’t restrict my freedom!

Don’t restrict my freedom!

Don’t, Restrict, my, freedom!

I am the beast inside of you.

What will I never do child?

To restrict your only freedom!

You Heart, mind, soul and your strength

They all belong to me, and your

loves, passions, views, lied to you.

I am the devil, deep inside

I am the devil, deep inside

I, am, the, devil, deep, inside

This here, lies within my grim tale,

I am not in control of me

The blood I’ve spilled, with full rivers,

The blood that remains on my hands,

Dahmer, Gacy, and Ted Bundy

They be saints in comparison.

Go for it, just do it.

Go for it, just do it.

Go, for, it, just, do, it!

These are the lies I believed.

These are the lies I chose to live.

How at last, my cruelty caught up.

Live in your great prosperity,

To do whatever feels just right.

Murder and rape did this to me.

These are the lies,

These are the lies,

These, are, the, lies!

I’ve asked you, for your forgiveness.

Time and time again you’re silent.

Come into my life, stop me Lord!

Just do it, Go for it. Do it!

I pray, I pray, still no answer.

I did it again, a child.

Voice cries murder!

Voice cries murder!

Voice, cries, murder!

But you’re not hurting anyone.

Finish boy, what you’ve started.

Kill him. It ain’t gonna hurt you.

No one cares for him anyway.

He’s useless to society.

It is just you, and it. Kill it.

Go for it, just do it.

Go for it, just do it.

Go, for, it, just, do, it!

Another boy by my own hands.

Just a sweet and innocent boy.

Why and I compelled to do such

Horrible things to innocents.

My hands will forever be stained.

Why can’t I take my own, be done!

Be gone Satan!

Be gone Satan!

Be, Gone, Satan!

You are no more use to me boy.

You have killed all with child faith.

You have successfully killed God.

Here, take this knife and finish it!

You useless, pitiful human!

There is only one more life to take.

Go for it, just do it,

Go for it, just do it,

Go, for, it, just do, it!

Is there no forgiveness from this?

Free me from this devil! Please God!

I cannot do this alone, please!

I need you, so please set me free!

I don’t want to do this! No more!

I can’t do this, my soul can’t take!

Forgive me!

Forgive me!

Forgive, me

You choose to call on God, this time?

You fool! You are an atheist!

Yet you don’t believe I exist.

You believe in Angels, not Devils.

You believe in God, but not me.

You believe in Good, not Evil.

Evil is in Abundance Great!

Evil is in Abundance Great!

Evil, is, in, Abundance, Great!

I grab the knife, offered to me.

So much hate of myself in here.

Burns hot like a thousand suns.

The monsters are not under our beds.

They are far more closer than that;

The monster dwells within our Hearts.

Within, us

Are, the, monsters,

Inside, of, us!

You have not kill me! I am alive.

I am knocking at your door, harder before.

Open your door. And let me in.

Let me in, to dine with you, Son.

Yes, I have called you here, Son.

Come, be with me, I’ll give you rest.

I, forgive, you.

I, forgive, you.

I, Love, You!

How can this purely be you God?

How can you love me, forgive me?

Knowing all the sin I have done?

Knowing all the murders and rapes?

How can you forgive me, Yahweh?

I have caused naught but suffering.

I, don’t, deserve, it.

I, don’t, deserve, it.

I, don’t, deserve, it!

No one deserves my loving grace.

I offer it to you freely.

Knock! Knock! Knock! Do you hear the noise?

It is my heart, pounding your door!

Please my beloved Son! Let me in!

I love you so much. Let me in!

I love you.

I love you.

I, Love, You!

Don’t you dare listen to him boy!

Don’t even listen to his lies!

You caused the Evil Holocaust!

You crushed the Twin Towers in Fall!

Do you really think he forgives!?

Don’t listen to his cunning lies!

God lies!

God, lies!

God, Lies, To, You!

Do you really think I hurt you?

No, it is the demons inside.

I will send my Angels to you.

There will be a day, my good Son,

With no more pain, lies and deceit.

No more crying, no fears nor tears.

No Fears, no Tears.

No Fears, no Tears.

Only Love!

Who is just for me to believe,

There is hate, fear, but love also.

There is anger, anguish and grace.

There is sadness, but mercy too.

Why are you such a merciful God!?

With abundance of Great supplies!

Take me as I am!

Take me as I am!

Take, me, as, I, am!

Your grace, Not enough, is enough

Enough, Don’t believe, Believe me!

For me, Not for you, It is yours.

Enter, Abandon, Come to me.

My Heart, All hope here, I give rest.

Jesus! Not that name! To your soul!

Let me in!

Me in Let!

In Let Me!

I

am

lost.

Found

I am.

The only way is through me

I

Love

You.

Your

Grace

Always

Flows

Greatly.

I

Adore

Thee,

My

Salvation

Lord

Jesus

I am me

I am Thee

Reviews

[Krizito]

I love the way you wrote the poem, it was new but great. And the story behind kinda got to me. Nice one