I'm Sorry

You took advantage of me.

I was 9 when you exposed yourself to me.

I didn’t know it was wrong so I did what you asked me to do.

I trusted you with my heart, because you were my dad.

You told me everything would be okay but it was far from okay.

You took my clothes off and I didn’t say anything.

I’m sorry.

You took my innocence away.

And now I am left here to pick up the the broken pieces of myself.

You were supposed to protect me.

I was your little girl, your world and you destroyed me.

It’s been 10 years and I am still broken inside.

I sit in my room and I ask for your forgiveness.

I’m sorry.

I should have stopped you, I should have stood up for myself.

But I didn’t because I loved you, because I trusted you, and now you are gone.

Tell me it’s not my fault.

Tell me that you still love me and that I’m still your daughter.

I’m sorry.

In my mind I hate you but my heart still loves you.

You put this war inside of me that I can’t win.

There’s this hole inside of me that I can’t fill no matter what I do.

You were my hero and now you are my worst nightmare.

Tell me everything is going to be okay.

Please still love me.

I’m sorry.

Reviews

[Davidgeo]

This was tough to read.

I admire your honesty.... but you should not be apologizing. I had an abusive father who died early on when I was young - any and all apologies should never come from you.... even ironically.

Stay strong. Even alone, you aren't really alone. Feel free to send me a PM if it helps; i'm not a huge fan of talking about abuse but if identifying with someone else helps don't hesitate to bother me privately at any time for any reason.

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[Chris Shaw]

Your words are heartbreaking to read and every Mother's worst possible nightmare. You should not be the one saying sorry here believe me. I'm not sure he deserves your love. There is much conflict in your mind. You have to come to terms with that if this is not fiction, but you are not the one to be saying sorry. Writing can be cathartic. I hope you find it so. You were a child of nine and he an adult. Your lines make me shudder.

Chris