Enough

Doubts and rejections, a vicious cycle

Why do I have these thoughts? Have I constructed them throughout my past experiences.. Have I been taught them? It comes so naturally for me to deny other people’s self-doubt and build them up. Why am I not able to do the same for myself? I can speak mountains out loud, discuss the capability and strength each individual has within themselves without anyone else being to blame for their worth. However, with me, it’s different. I cannot rid of these overwhelming thoughts, am I enough? Why don’t they want me, what have I done, what can I change? Each rejection, halt of contact, avoidance... Was it me? I have so much love to give and no one to give it to. It is collecting dust on the shelves of my heart. So when any opportunity opens up, it spills over, so easy for me to share my heart with others and have it broken. A theme that has damaged me repeatedly. What can I do better, what can I change. I want to remind myself that I am enough. I am worthy. Why won’t I listen?