complicated

iam tired of everything and i cant do anything, its not easy for me to accept anything that changes in my life, simply, im not that kind of person i cant convince my self that i can do anything. iam very weak and i cant get over whatever was in my past, iam not really over it. isn't that really weird for a 18 years old girl? i know im too young but what i feel is very old for my age and for me. iam not ready to start a new chapter and forget the old one, cause the old one was my favorite and will always be. that's all because of one person, i know if we were still together, i would still have the ability and the endurance to get over things and to get over my fears. i always ask myself how would my life be if we stayed together. i need him again, i need us. i guess im suffering.