born to be alone.

i hurt a lot of people without knowing that. It hurts me too, i dont know how to treat people the way they should be treated. I said "i hate you" to everyone in my life and sometimes i mean it, and other times i dont mean it. My sister is so sure that i hate her, because i dont know how to show my love to the people i really love. I dont know why its not easy for me to do, Maybe i was born that way. I was born rough, rough to the people i love the most. I guess i should be alone all the time to avoid hurting anyone, but only god knows that i dont mean it, i swear i dont mean it, im insane, i do things that nobody does. And its not really good thing. It makes me hate myself sometimes, im sorry, im so sorry, Iam a monster in a cute way, they think im cute in the beginning but then i dont find them, they leave me because of the way i treat them with. Isn't that so hard to a cute insane girl?